Thursday, March 28, 2013

Modbox March 2013 review.

It's Modbox time again!! This is the March edition of Modbox, I received it last week but didn't have time to take photos, finally done photos taking and products trying today!

I was guessing the colour of ribbon when I got this. Blue? Green? But turns out it is......*drum rolls*

Purple!!!! I didn't think of the colour of Modbox before haha. It makes me more curious on the next month's colour!!

So, this month's theme is back to basics!

So there are 6 products this month, including one full size product!

First product, as well as the only full size product, Gleam Full Long Lash Mascara from Luview!
This mascara is cute because it has a little sealing sticker on it.

The formula is full of fiber, and the wand's shape is better to coat the lashes evenly.
Smudge-proof, waterproof, clump-free and easy to remove without pulling off your lashes. Well, this seems to be a nice mascara!
So, I did try the product.

This is my lashes without mascara and curling. Yes I have long lashes which is my only proud! Haha, credit goes to vaseline!

And this is one side with mascara on. You can see my lashes are thicker, and a little bit longer.

Here I am, makeup-ed, but only one side mascara hahaha.
It's RM42.90/14g

NEXT! Timeless serum and whitening cream from Cosmeteq.

Both of them are sample size, 5g. The timeless serum is a super anti-oxidant that increases your collagen production to renew your skin's firmness and fight photo-aging.
The whitening cream unlike the usual whitening formulations that bleaches your skin, this contains more natural actives that restricts melanin from forming, which is the cause of your tanning skin.

This is the swatches,

 In the box, the catalogue from Cosmeteq came along too.

Timeless is RM46.90/5g, whitening cream is RM19.90/5g.

Next, the removing cleansing gel and perfect glow sunscreen from SF Beauty Skin.

The remover cleansing gel is 10ml, and the sunscreen is 6ml.

The samples are stuck on the pamphlet, the other side of the pamphlet teach you how to use the cleansing gel and the use of sunscreen.

I tried the cleansing gel today, to remove makeup and mascara from Luview.

This is me with full makeup. BB cream, powder, blusher, eyeshadow, lip stain.

To remove eye makeup, soak the cotton pad and place it on eyes for 30 seconds.

After 30 seconds, remove the cotton pad.
You can see the mascara is removed, but to be honest, it doesn't really does the job very well. Most of the mascara is still on my lashes. And this irritated my eyes, I have to keep washing my eyes with water after removing the cotton pad. I seldom met this problem with my Maybelline eye-lip makeup remover before.

Then pour this on palm, massage on face in circular motion to remove makeup. This is what turns out,
Ewwww, gross right?! Hahaha!  I was so surprised when I saw this. But then I read it again, it is gel, and the products on your face do removed in a clump. This is so funny, like foundation gel.
But I realised with 1 time, it can't remove the makeup thoroughly. Perhaps I was to surprised with the texture and I didn't really massage a lot, but after second time, the makeup are removed.

You can see my bare face. The redness aren't irritation but my skin is sensitive and tends to appear redness when I rub or massage my face.

The remover cleansing gel is RM100/150ml, the sunscreen is RM125/30ml.

The last product is grape multiple moisturising mask from Le Masque Hazelia.

It's RM29.90/1box of 10 pieces.

Oh, and don't forget to mention that, I joined the last month's review program to get mystery gift. And I got it!

It's a hairband that you can wrap it around your hair when you're cleansing your face! Thank you for the gift!

Above are the March Modbox! I put more effort in this post, and tried to take the photos beautifully. But I'm not a photographer lah, haha.

I hope you enjoy my review. =)
Do check out their website: Modbox  Also their Facebook page: Modbox Facebook Page

Wednesday, March 27, 2013


Here I am with another questionnaire! Haha, last was Chinese version while this is English version. Kinda different with Chinese version. Found this on Tumblr, fuckyeahsurveys.
I'm a freak who like doing questionnaire and letting people know me better. Put it in simple way, I want people to notice me?! Haha!

  1.  Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?
  2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
    ---My mom does the work, hahaha.
  3. Have you ever ‘done it’ in a hotel room?
  4. Where is your next vacation?
    ---Terengganu! I'm going to Terengganu for Ching-Ming on Friday, though it doesn't considered as vacation, I think.
  5. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
    ---Who on earth will steal street sign? For what?!
  6. Who do you think reads these?
    ---Readers? Mostly friends from Facebook I think haha!
  7. Do you have a calendar in your room?
    ---Yupp, but not this year's. I don't have this year's calendar.
  8. Where are you?
    ---My room.
  9. What’s your plan for the day?
    ---Watch [I miss you], the Korean drama, later.
  10. Are you reading any books right now?
    ---Rereading [闪闪钻石糖] by 深雪.
  11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
    ---Sometimes, when I'm bored or awkward haha.
  12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
  13. Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?
    ---Yup, when I'm singing alone!
  14. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
  15. What is your “Song of the Week”?
    ---Love light by CNBlue. After watching We got married, obsessed with this song. A very very sweet song!
  16. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
    ---Yes, as long as he looks good instead of girly.
  17. Do you still watch cartoons?
    ---Yup, still loving Powerpuff Girls and Totally Spies!!!
  18. Whats your favorite love movie?
    ---*thinking* I think I don't have a favourite movie, I just watch them.
  19. What do you drink with dinner?
    ---Plain water.
  20. What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in?
    ---Chilli sauce.
  21. What is your favorite food/cuisine?
    ---Sushi!!! All time favourite. Western food too, and don't forget spaghetti!
  22. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
    ---High School Musical! Literally favourite movie in my whole life, even though I don't watch them as much as I did.
  23. Last person you hugged/kissed?
    ---Friends from school perhaps. On our graduating day, girls were hugging everywhere.
  24. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
    ---Yes, in primary school but we never did anything girl scouts really do.
  25. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
  26. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
    ---Primary school, when I had pen pals.
  27. Can you change the oil on a car?
  28. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
  29. Run out of gas?
    ---Never, my dad always fill the gas so I never fill the gas before.
  30. Favorite kind of sandwich?
    ---Egg mayo, simplest yet the best!
  31. Best thing to eat for breakfast?
    ---Waffles, cereals, American breakfast including hash brown!!
  32. What is your usual bedtime?
    ---3/4am after graduating from school.
  33. Are you lazy?
  34. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
    ---We don't celebrate(?) Halloween here.
  35. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
  36. Which are better, legos or lincoln logs?
  37. Are you stubborn?
  38. Who is better…Leno or Letterman?
    ---Ermm...I don't know both of them.
  39. Ever watch soap operas?
  40. Afraid of heights?
  41. Sing in the car?
    ---Of course!
  42. Dance in the shower?
    ---Sometimes, when the radio is playing my favourite songs.
  43. Dance in the car?
    ---No. Dancing in car could be very dangerous.
  44. Ever used a gun?
    ---Toy, yes.
  45. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
    ---A little, though I never watch a musical. But from Grease on Glee, kinda cheesy.
  46. Is Christmas stressful?
    ---No! Because I don't really celebrate it too haha.
  47. Ever eat a pierogi?
    ---No, didn't know what it is until Googled it.
  48. Major annoyance right now?
    ---Can't decide what course to take and which college to attend.
  49. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
  50. Do you believe in ghosts?
    ---Kinda, but I'm very very afraid of them.
  51. Ever have a deja-vu feeling?
  52. Do you take a vitamin daily?
  53. Wear slippers?
    ---Not in house.
  54. Wear a bath robe?
  55. What do you wear to bed?
    ---Normal clothes, I don't wear pyjamas.
  56. Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart?
    ---Jusco. Haha, we don't have any of above in Malaysia!!
  57. Nike or Adidas?
  58. Cheetos Or Fritos?
  59. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
  60. Ever hear of, “gorp”?
  61. Ever taken karate?
  62. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
  63. Can you curl your tongue?
  64. Ever won a spelling bee?
    ---No, never took part in it. Wanted to enter last year but I guess I missed the date.
  65. Ever cried because you were so happy?
    ---Yes, when I saw my SPM result.
  66. Own any record albums?
  67. Own a record player?
  68. Regularly burn incense?
  69. Ever been in love?
  70. Hot tea or cold tea:
  71. Tea or coffee?
  72. Favorite kind of cookie?
    ---Chocolate chip!
  73. Can you swim well?
    ---I can swim, but not well.
  74. Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose?
  75. Are you patient?
    ---Depends on situation I think.
  76. Ever won a contest?
  77. Ever had plastic surgery?
  78. Which are better black or green olives?
    ---I don't eat olives.
  79. Can you knit or crochet?
  80. Wash room or bathroom?
  81. Do you want to get married?
  82. Who was your High School crush?
    ---Oh my, this is sharp. Not going to answer this haha.
  83. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
    ---When I was a little kid I bet I did that, every kids did that to get toys!
  84. Do you have kids?
  85. Do you want kids?
  86. What kind of mom are you?
    ---I'm not a mom yet, but I hope I can be like a friend to my kids instead of be like a mom.
  87. Do you miss anyone right now?
  88. Who do you want to see right now?

There are some funny and weird questions haha!
Anyways, next post will be the modbox review, I would post it out tomorrow!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013



上一次填这份问卷, 是2011年1月2号. 突然翻到这个, 就想说再来玩一次! 以前很爱填这种东西的说哈哈哈.
隔了2年, 看看答案还会不会一样!

2.别人怎麼叫我:佩娟、阿娟、娟娟、小娟娟、selina chua   
3.我目前的状态:嗯..刚拿了SPM成绩, 站在人生的十字路口, 完全懵的状态!
6.顿位:超重, 严重超重.  
7.血的类型:A型! 而且竟然是看回这份问卷才记得原来是A型而不是一直认为的AB型! omg
10.用什麼交通工具移动方位:现在多数用车, 偶尔巴士.  
12.耳洞: 没有.   
13.热爱的唱片:很久没有整张唱片了耶, 目前没有.
14.热爱的八点档:最近很少看电视耶, 也是没有.   
15.热爱的书: 还是很爱《天使街23号》
16.热爱的电影:最近也很少看电影 /.\  
17.曾经很迷的:Glee! 最近对Glee的爱减少了, 怎么办><  很多集没有看了/.\   
18.最近很得意:SPM英文A+, 1119  1A!!!   
20.不得意的科目:历史和数学. 永远的死穴.  
24.成年後的感觉:omg还是以前上课的日子开心, 简单, 没烦恼!!  
30.喜欢的颜色:粉红, 白色, 蓝色, 驼色, pastel colour.   
32.住最远的朋友:德国! 吖萍在德国啊现在哈哈哈.   
33.吃不吃回头草:嗯...不确定, 要当下才会有感想吧.   
34.对吃回头草的看法: 真的放不下吗?   
35.对排队买Mister Donut的看法:有那么好吃吗?   
37.对留学的看法:很好, 很想去美国留学.  
38.对健康的看法:很重要, 但自己没有很care.   
43.口头禅:是哦. 嗯嗯. 粗话-.-   
51.要化身成卡通人物想当谁:哆啦A梦. 其实长得也像了啦应该-.-
53.讨厌的女生type:做作, 虚伪.   
54.讨厌的男生type:用暴力解决事情, 装作什么都懂.
56.大便时会一边干嘛:看书, 玩电话-.-  
58.激凸时怎麼办: 就这样吧. 还能怎样? -.-  
59.作弊被抓到时怎办:没有作弊过, 如果给答案不算的话哈哈哈.
61.夏天最爱穿什麼:t shirt啊  
63.十年後我在干嘛:结婚了吧, 都28岁了.   
64.宠物会取什麼名字:Chubbi! 因为Bubz的狗叫Chubbi, 超可爱的.   
65.儿子的名字要取为 :以天使街23号的人物命名!!   
66.乐透一直签不中的感想: 我没有买过耶其实.   
67.最想去的国家:台湾, 韩国, 美国, 日本.   
70.国中时的印象:没什么听老师讲课, 混日子可是却很开心.  
71.下一次刺青想刺哪:脚踝那边, [stay strong]!! 可是怕痛不敢刺啦   
72.觉得最恶烂的生物:昆虫类, 尤其蟑螂.   
74.整型最想整哪里:学会了embrace自己, 不要加工.  
76.小时候的梦想:老师! 后来想做化妆师, 可是感觉很难实现.   
80.脸怎麼保养:肥皂, toner, anti-blemish serum, moisturizer, avene spring water.   
88.失眠时都怎麼解决:翻来覆去, 催眠自己让大脑不要想那么多东西.   
89.发色:黑色, 毕业后都没有染头发的乖小孩一枚!
91.所有频道里最爱哪一台:Astro The One HD!! ch393, 最近很爱看韩国频道啦.   
92.最後悔的事: SPM前没有认真念书考好成绩.
93.早餐通常吃什麼: 以前上学的时候都会做很多早餐, 现在都睡到11点12点, 没有吃早餐了.  
95.旷课通知单出现最多的数字:10天吧, 不是很记得了, 收过一次罢了.   
96.在东区跌倒了该怎麼办: 赶快站起来啊, 还在地上的话会很丢脸耶.  

隔了2年, 有些答案还是一样的耶哈哈哈. 感觉以前用词也比较轻浮. 现在应该比较成熟一点了吧哈哈哈.

Friday, March 22, 2013

SPM Result Day.

********For people who are reading right now, which I assume you're going to take your SPM result in couple of weeks or just tomorrow, or you're just out from the exam hall. If you're the latter, gosh you're too nervous. Just enjoy the holiday okay?!?! If you're the former, stop your googling, and sleep earlier and don't drink a lot the night before taking your exam. Because what you'll read later in this post is about a dumb girl who drank gallons of water ended up with super duper puffy face on Dday. You don't want this to happen because you want to take pretty pictures. Keep googling wouldn't help you in any way. Just relax, stay calm, have your breakfast before going to school. Make sure your phone is full of battery so you can take tons of picture. Remember, cherish the friends you're going to see on the result day. They are the people you'll cherish for the rest of your life. The result ain't everything. It's just SPM, it's just a result. You'll see my poooooor result later on, and here I am, surviving well in university. SPM ain't everything remember. Do not get too depressed from it. What's more important is your life right now, and future. Think well about your future, not keep on regret or disappoint on your SPM result. Now, you can move on to read now.********

It's the big day. SPM result day.
After blogging yesterday, I even watched We Got Married. hahaha. Turns out I slept at around 2am. And I drank too much water, I woke up with puffy face!! lol

Eunice, Esther and I had breakfast at K7, then we walked to school. As nearer to school, my hearts pumps faster. So freaking nervous!
We arrived at school at around 10:50am, yet haven't start anything. Sat in canteen, met friends and chatted hahaha. Finally go into hall at 11-ish.

So many subjects' result drop. Almost every subject had dropped. 19 straight As this year, last year was only 5 haha. Good job and congratulations everyone!!!!!

Selfca with Ying Ying in hall.

OMG look at that fucking puffy eyes and face!!!!!

Finally, rush to canteen and find our teacher to get result slip.
OMG You wouldn't know how hot and nervous was I at that time. So freaking, freaking nervous. I saw others' slips, so I know English is the second result, so I just kept eye on second row.
It's nerve wrecking when teacher kept flipping the slips and you saw your name and subjects but not result!!!!

When it's me, A+ for English!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I didn't expect for this to be honest!!!! I thought B+ or A is my best!!!!!! BUT I GOT THE FUCKING A+!!!!!!

Then I called parents, no one was too nervous nor happy wtf hahaha.
Eunice reminded me that the 1119 result is at the left down side of slip, I read it and realised I got 1A for it too!!!
OMG Who on earth would wish for A+ when she wrote 11 pages for description story, which is just a fucking boring farewell party for teacher!!!!
I always thought I've wrote too much again, I didn't even have time to read and check my grammar and story omg! And I thought I had no climax in the story which made the whole story boring!!
Can I get my paper back so I can read it again? I never hand in an essay that I can't even finish reading before hahaha!

To every English teachers and tuition teachers, I didn't let you guys down! I got A+ for English! Hahahaha!!

So freaking happy!!!

I know this result is very very bad to most of the students, but 1A2B4C1D1G, this result is good to me.
At least I've got improvement. I know how much I work hard, very little, but yet I still see the improvement to the subjects that I've been working on, so I'm okay with it!

We went out to celebrate(??) at sutera!! Our driver today is our dearest Ms Mong, Wen Wen!
Still puffy eyes, wtffff.
Esther is not in the picture because we just arrived her house haha!

We had lunch together, and went to a big size boutique. I even tried on dress omggg.
My last wearing dress was when I was in primary school perhaps, like 8 or 9 when I was attending wedding. Other than that, school uniform dress that is.

At night, went to U dessert with Esther and Jin Xiang. We was going to discuss about school at first, but we just kept eating and gossiping!
Back to Taman U, picked Khang Zheng up and go Agus! Puyuh is really taste just like fried chicken, believe me please. Why no one wants to eat it T.T
Have to finish almost the whole plate, thankfully Khang Zheng ate some haha! I was overfull!

I shouldn't say that right? If I didn't spit it out, then no one would be unhappy...If I just kept it in heart, no one would be angry...
Sorry guys... =(((

Yeah, saw him, and yeah. haha. What to say?.. I don't dare to look at him hahahaha. wtf me.

Yiipppeeeee I'm a happy who-just-got-result girl!!!

Lastly, shoutout to all the teachers who had helped me all along the learning road.
--Pn Radiah, 2 years Science teacher, class teacher, who always forgives our mistakes and never scold us. Walaupun saya x dpt A, tapi cikgu saya dpt B! Sudah baik dari biasa!
--Ms Cheong, 2 years English teacher. Thank you for teaching us patiently, and thank you for all those teaching and advices, I know you said I'm always in the box when it comes to essays. That is my main and biggest problem. Even though I don't know if I overcome it but thankfully I got A+ for English!!
--Sir Hock Ming, 2 years and half tuition teacher. Hahahaha, all I can say is thank you for letting us learning English in such a happy atmosphere! Your class is awesome, relax but still can learn things! Those conversation listening exercise are awesome, I like it a lot haha!
--Mrs Kho, kindergarten teacher, 7-8 years tuition teacher. Even though we don't contact at all these years, but you always is my dearest teacher and I proudly announce that I got A+ for English, I'm still in that standard back when primary school!
--Ms Lee, 2 years mathematics tuition teacher. Ms Lee, even though I didn't reach your target, B, but I still got C!!! I failed so many times in these years omg! I always absent your class and don't do your homework, I'm so sorry for that but your teaching is fun! I've learnt so much in your class!
--BM Lee, 2 years and half BM tuition teacher. Sorry teacher that I didn't persistent enough to keep tuitioning to form 5. But that 2 years, I've learned a lot too! You're really a cool teacher!

The list still goes on but it would be too much if I keep on writing! In conclusion, thank you to every teacher who had taught me in school and the tuition teachers!

I'm really satisfied with my result. You reap what you sow. My hard work=result now. So I won't complain anything.

Congratulations to all everyone!!!

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Last day before SPM result day.

Alright, tomorrow is the SPM result day, and Eunice and I still peaceful enough to go out today! lol

Prepared for about 1 hour, most time doing eye makeup!!! I don't know why but I just can't do things right today!

 This is my first try. After done right eyeliner, I think it's too much so I remove eye makeup thoroughly omg.

After few tries, finally set to this.
No eyeshadow, just eyeliner and mascara. Look how horrifying my mascara is lol.
Then just some vain selfca.
 Tried wink. Seriously, I'm not that cute kind girl who can do winks perfectly. But I like this. This is pretty nice out of the winks I've tried lol. But I think I shouldn't try winks anymore. =(

Tried some weird looks too...  First time wearing black contact lens, looks very very very scary at night when I'm looking at mirror. Really, I'm even scared.
I used my new try and favourite bb cream at the moment, air bb cream from Hada Labo. Doesn't dry out my skin, and looks natural. Good baby.

We went to Sutera mall, Eunice was the one who asked me out, yet she didn't know what to look and where to go omg. Ends up her motive was only to buy makeup remover hahaha.

After walking around, I bought earrings for bro as his birthday present! lol. He's 16 now. Please, please, please, stop telling me those funny yet ridiculous things, I don't know why I always believe what he says, even lies omg.

Then we had lunch at El Migos! Eunice always thinks a lot when it comes to eat, first is seating, she likes to choose seat instead of the brought by the waiters. Then menu, she have to decide which to eat, there's too much for her to choose. Finally, even drinks hahaha.
I'm easy, seafood bake. Seafood is always my first choice. I read the menu thoroughly, but still back to my favourite, seafood! Prawns and squids are always my favourite seafood, fish too haha.

We sat there for almost 2-3 hours. We chatted a lot, from her PLKN, to secondary school life, to future. Future, is always a blur scene to me. I can't see it clearly, I can't even see it.

So, when it comes to girls, selfca is definitely.

This is funny. She came beside me, holding my phone, but her fingers aren't long enough to reach the button. I have to hit the button hahaha.

Other than these 2, else are just her selfca!!! Hahaha, I don't think I should put it up, or she may be angry... hahahaha!!

After chatting for 1-2 hours, I ordered a lava chocolate cake. Just feeling to have desserts!
 This is after few mouthful eating hahaha. Didn't patient enough to take photo. This is heavenly delicious, I like this. Everything with chocolate is just heaven!

 I was eating but she said she wanted to take picture. I don't know why but I burst up laughing after that, then keep eating the cake.
This is her going-to-eat pose!!! hahaha!

It's 21st March, 2013. 12:09am. SPM RESULT DAY. I'm going to sleep soon, if I can. Even though nervous, but still have to accept the truth right?

Everyone who are going to take SPM result today, fighting!!

Saturday, March 9, 2013


OMG Now literally 11 days to the SPM results day. Say WHAT!?!!!
Nervous? Kinda. What if I can't get A for English? What if I can't get C for mathematics? What if I can't get at least C for Chinese? What if I don't pass Economics and Perdagangan? WHAT IF I DON'T PASS BM?!?!

Facebook-messaged a college. Nice college, nice staff, nice reply. Reply me within a day, yet very detailed. After understanding everything and get application form, one thing struck me.
I wanted to apply for graphic design, and I thought no arts needed. But in application form, if you didn't take arts in SPM, you'll have to submit 3 fortfolios,
Portfolio guideline:
1 piece of A4 size portrait drawing in pencil/charcoal;
1 piece of A4 size landscape or still life drawing in watercolor;
1 piece of A4 size design artwork in any topic and medium.

Just in case you don't know, I FAILED MY ARTS ONE. FMLLL.
I can't draw, really. I got C for arts SINCE I was in primary school.

Now, this totally ruined my plan. I can't apply this anymore *sobsssssss sobbbsssssss*

I think I have to stick with IT again?  *face palm*

I need to attend college in April, HAVE TO.
Because I want to skip PLKN  ><
This is serious, I don't really want to spend and waste 3 months in PLKN. I'll prefer to school even though I don't like study ><

Now, I have to find other schools wtf.  I've been doing research already, finally decide to change from IT to graphic design, but the drawing rule, I'm sorry that I can't do that.  *sighh*

But all my friends seems like want to attend school later, like in June..
If I attend next month, I'll be alone, and I have to find accommodation. If we're all together, we may rent a house together..

But if I go with friends, means I have to go PLKN ?!?!?!
Perhaps the most struggling decision ever in my life!!!!!!!!
I have to think this seriously..

Oh and by the way, why PLKN don't reply emails one?!!!!!!!!
I've already emailed them to know how to postpone it, but no reply wtfff

OMG WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, last post gained 10+ views, should I be happy? lol

I.....don't know what to do now!!! OTTOKE?!!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013



以上是我去年10月写的东西的开头. 本来打算公开当毕业礼物送给部落格, 可是最后没有那个勇气.

其实有什么好怕的? 没人care这件事, 是自己放在心里, 打了一个结, 解不开罢了.

可是真的写到很小说, 很诗情画意、很言情, 公开了也会为自己的文笔感到丢脸, 所以算了哈哈哈.


这句话看似容易说出口, 明明才4个字. 可是偏偏这4个字, 背后蕴藏太多东西, 导致不容易说出口.

更多的, 是不确定, 没自信, 没勇气.

不确定是否真的有那种感情在. 万一只是一时冲动,  万一只是感觉错误, 万一只是朋友的起哄, 怎么办.

没自信, 觉得自己配不上他. 觉得自己没有资格陷入恋情. 对自己,太没有信心, 对对方, 也没有信心.

没勇气把那4个字说出口. 明明话就在嘴边了, 始终,说不出来.

而我,  就是参杂了这3种因素.

因为某些原因, 他说他喜欢的是我.  当下脸红心跳  不知所措.
可是冷静一想, 到底是真心, 还是敷衍?

谁知道一句"你啦你啦" 会让人那么不知所措.

到底那是告白, 还是敷衍打发?

我是那种  事情过了一阵子  回想后会觉得应该要这样那样做, 不管什么事情.
即使只是跟朋友的聊天, 回想我们的聊天内容后, 我会觉得, "啊,当时如果这样回答会比较好, 如果这样子讲会比较好笑, 哎呀当初不应该那样子说的."

因为我当下会直接出来, 不会多想才回答.

回想当时, 我不应该马上走掉, 应该要继续问下去. 要得到一个确切的答案, 即使那个人不是我.


可是过后, 我就会想出一堆东西来否定这个结果.

"哎呀,  他只是基于同学的礼貌才会offer说要帮我. 想太多了."

"哎呀, 他只是觉得男生做粗重活比较好, 才会帮我的,想太多了你."

曾经, 我有机会可以再问, 却因为靠近了,我匆匆跑掉了.

事情过了那么久  从来不知道一个真正的答案.


因为有人说了一件事, 我才去问的. 才会有那个答案.

那件事, 到底有没有发生的? 是不是耍我的?

越想越觉得自己可悲, 哈.

从来没有勇气, 再问一次. 

因为怕尴尬.  而不是怕答案.

从此提到他  心里总有点不自在. 说真的, 不知道为什么.


身为一个别人眼中的暴力女, 爱讲大道理, 固执, 烦, 懒惰, 又常常飙粗话的女生, 实在没什么优点.

外表上, 就已经是先天欠缺了. 就已经没有分了.

如果剖析一个女生的外表, 个性, 学业等等等等, 然后得出一个分数的话,
我  应该是负分数的吧.  ((笑

自信, 一丁点儿都没有.

要拿成绩了. 他们说见到你会尴尬.

会吧.  应该会有点不知道要怎么样.

现在, 还有没有喜欢的感觉其实我不知道了.

有时候挺聪明的明明.  为什么总感觉被朋友设计, 掉入了一个陷阱?

女生的第六感, 其实有时候真的会很准.

这件事, 我从来没有大大方方跟别人聊过.

其实我想讲的.  我想敞开心房跟朋友聊这件事.

可是怎么办, 每每有那个机会的时候, 我就会临阵退缩.


原因?  那该死的的怕丢脸.

我其实很少敞开心房 聊自己的事情.

我就是习惯压抑.  我习惯聆听.

每次聊天, 我都很怕我说出来的东西会冷场.

我的专长,  就是把热络的气氛弄冷耶.  ((大笑

我想聊, 却不知道从何讲起.

但其实, 我已经写了很多. 哈哈.

总是夜深人静的时候, 突然情绪变了.

突然很想听某一类的歌, 然后眼泪就啪啦啪啦掉了.


哈哈哈 请原谅我的emo.

Monday, March 4, 2013


It's Monday today! Woke up quite early since my bro is skipping school again and my mum was shouting to him, literally woke up from mum's shouting. lol.

Was into gathering with friends few days ago! Esther, Jin Xiang, Khang Zheng and I had met few times again in the last few days lol. I was requested to cook again lol, but was dinner instead of breakfast! Kimchi fried rice  ;)

I'm in PLKN batch 2. wtfffff. Don't know what to do. I have to postpone it in any ways. Study comes first  lol

Had a 3-hours nap today, and surprisingly had a dream hahaha. I don't usually have nap dreams since I don't usually take a nap lol! If it was just a normal dream then I won't mention it. But it's kinda special.
My primary school's friends actually appeared in dream O.O
OMGGG  I saw Shi Ting in my dream. I can't remember everything now, shit I should have note it down. ><
I was in the school, running away for reason, then I saw someone. He was there, then we chatted. Then I saw Shi Ting lol. At the end we had steamboat together!!! What a funny ending!! Seriously, even in dream I'm still thinking about food! lolol.

Well, I had my beauty day today! I spent time exfoliating my face, had mask to treat my skin. I spent 30 minutes in shower, doing hair treatment and scrubbing body. Feels so good with all the good smell. And now I feel clean and fresh, and definitely make me happy!
The best way to beat Monday Blue, doing things that will make you happy. For me, treat my skin nicely will make me happy! Playing Jolin Tsai's CD while showering is a plus! =DD

Air Asia is having promotion again, RM299 to Taiwan, RM369 to Korea. OMG 2 countries I wanted to go most at the moment. Lack of money and time =((

I just finished watching Rooftop Prince. Cried in the last 2 episodes, other than that, didn't shed a tear haha. It's just funny and kinda mystery. I kept thinking who killed Crown Princess in the Joseon era. Turned out Bu Yong was the one who dead. I can't control my tears when I saw that scene, why is she so nice to her sister no matter in Joseon era or 21st century? Park Ha ahhh....

I miss bibimbap.. Few days ago I was alone for dinner, no one in the house. I was craving for it so much, but thinking of I have to drive far to eat this, moreover can't find parking on weekend, I gave out. But I really wanted to eat it.. Anyone wants to go with me?!

Just mentioned him in our conversation yesterday, then today he appeared in my dream? ..

Funny how few lyrics can make me cry easily...

I think I'm ugly, and nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty.
Don't lie to my face, telling me I'm pretty.

I think I'm ugly, and nobody wants to love me.
Just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty.
Don't lie to my face, 'cause I know I'm ugly.
---Ugly by 2NE1---

Friday, March 1, 2013

Modbox February 2013 review

Here I am, another Modbox review!! I really like this kind of subscription service, you'll never know what you'll get until it arrived!!

As last month, it was delivered through GDex. After the GDex flyer, it was the same purple box!

Opening the box process already made me happy lol. I was curious on what colour of ribbon will be!
And the answer is.... *drum roll*


4 FULL SIZE PRODUCTS PEOPLE!!! This box is getting more surprise!

The first product is a full size product, Silk Classic Collection Hair Perfume(Dry Shampoo) from SHAiRE London.
I had high expectation on this product, because it is a dry shampoo, and my hair and scalp get oily very easily so dry shampoo will definitely comes handy on oily hair day.
But I tried it, it is just, hair perfume.
When I open it, I can smell the alcohol from the box. I spray some on my hair and scalp, as the instruction, then massage it. Nothing magical happened haha. My hair is still oily.
But from the modbox card, it is written "Great for in between washes, it cleanses, conditions and revitalizes your hair, and repairs and strengthens hair roots--all in one nifty little bottle.Spray on both hair and scalp, and trust us, you'll love how soft and silky your hair feels after!"
So perhaps it works as a conditioner instead of dry shampoo?
For my personal opinion, and my 1 time test, it didn't remove grease from my hair and scalp.
It is RM35.9/60ml

The second product is nail wrap from Perkins!

Nail wraps became very famous since Sally Hansen started selling those. And they are not cheap. This is perhaps a dupe for Sally Hansen!
Inside the box you'll find:

A nail file and 20 strips. As you can see, there are 21 designs, and mine is N16. The other side of the booklet is instruction of how to apply this on. I haven't try this yet, as I had my manicure on. You can see my epic failed version of pink gradient manicure in the pic right haha. That's my index finger and ring finger, fyi.
It is RM39.9/per pack

Next product, Blemish clearing serum from Juice Beauty.
This is not a full size product, it is 30ml, but the full size is actually 50ml! It's 2/3 of the full size product! OMG Almost full size already!
Melt those blemishes away with this organic fruit acid-based serum. This powerful organic formula heals while hydrating to purify pores, lighten scarring and soothe irritation.

Here's my swatch:

It is kinda watery, and this amount is definitely more than you need every time. It smells like apple cider vinegar. I believe it is the combination of apple and lemon, as written on the tube.
I only used it one time, so I don't know about the result yet. I haven't get used to put this in my skincare routine ><
It is RM185/50ml

The forth product, smokey eyes set (04 Show Off) from Essence.
I've heard this brand before, but I can't remember when and where. Perhaps I got something free from Shout magazine, which is a UK magazine before. I Googled it, and it's actually quite famous in Europe, due to it's cheap price yet nice quality. This got 3 and half stars from which is a famous beauty review website!
This is a smokey eye set, it's a eyeshadow and eyeliner. The eyeshadow is unexpectedly pigmented. To be honest, when I saw the price, I didn't expect much at all. RM11.9 for this is super duper cheap!
I was a fan of Shout magazine before, and I've got so many not pigmented at all eyeshadows from different low-price cosmetics brands in UK. But this is really beyond my expectations.
The eyeliner is not that pigmented, it need few times to get it really opaque, but this is for smokey eyes, you doesn't really need opaque eyeliner so this does its work.
For the brush, the eyeliner brush is just so-so. Well, you wouldn't expect much from the brush along with the duo eyeshadow. But using my ecotools eyeliner brush, it works just well.
It is RM11.9/3g

Last but not least, XXXL nudes lipgloss (05 Forever Rosé) from Essence.

The wand is interesting, it is not the usual wand, it is straight, while just a little curve.
The swatch:
Can't see any colour? Of course. Because this is the nude gloss! It is shimmery, not too sticky and smells kinda like mint chocolate. It doesn't have the chemical smell.
It is RM9.9/5ml

That's a wrap! I hope you enjoy my review  ;)
Do check out their website: Modbox  Also their Facebook page: Modbox Facebook Page
Please looking forward to my next review! lol.  I really enjoy doing reviews! =P