Thursday, February 27, 2014

26-2-2014

12:55am
本來已經關機 洗臉要準備睡覺了
但是洗臉的時候又想要來寫寫東西
所以電腦關機不到5分鐘又開了
抱歉啊電腦 :)

2NE1專輯發佈了! Come back home很好聽我很愛
unplugged版本真的完全表現了他們的聲音
gotta be you也是很喜歡 好愛CL的rap啊啊啊



I like to be in car. Because it the very private space that I can talk whatever I want. But I think the cars beside me either think that I'm singing, or I'm crazy because there's no one else in the car, yet my mouth don't stop moving hahaha.

I talk a lot. Randomly. From the things happened, or the things I should say for oral class, a lot. Because I still believe that, talking with yourself is a very effective way to learn English since I have no native speakers around me. So, I talk, with myself.
The thing I noticed today is my accent. I tried freaking hard to speak like American. I'm learning American accent fyi. I learnt the accent through all those makeup tutorials, those beauty videos. But since I started get obsessed with Korean, I stopped watching a lot of makeup tutorials. I watch only Michelle Phan's now, making me hearing lesser American accent. Instead, I watch a lot Bubzbeauty's video, because she has a vlog channel, and I love seeing her daily life.
She has a Northern Irish accent, which is different with American accent. I think my accent now is kinda going to Bubz's, oh gosh.
Not the Irish accent is bad, but the accent I wanted to adopt is American accent. So I think it's kinda bad that I've gone a little Irish. I personally think Bubz's accent is very cute, the way she pronounced some words are cute but I just prefer American accent.

The is the thing I noticed while I was driving to Esther house hahahahahahaha. I had one time, sitting in the car, and started to talk. I recorded it after a while, and there's like almost 10 minutes hahaha. I said things randomly. I'll pretend that there's a invisible audience in front of me, and listening to me speaking. So, I talk a lot.


說了那麼多廢話   結論就是
我很喜歡在車裡說話


我不等了. =)
雖然說前面更好的看不見我  但我也不再停留了.
放久了  會變質的
所以呢 自己好好過吧
哈哈哈哈哈
把之前的東西當成假象  別人所做的讓我聯想的東西  也忘了吧
只能說妹妹影響我太大  讓我有很多幻想呢
或許  是被妹妹玩弄了? 哈哈哈哈哈



愛寫  又怕別人看
怎辦?


Friday, February 21, 2014

21-2-2014

最近日子  過的很一般
這是個形容詞吧哈哈哈

在學校出乎意料的過得很不錯最近
怎麼辦  最後一個sem了才跟大家比較好一點的感覺
因為分組 我總算有和本來不是很熟的人一組 這樣才能更認識大家
我太太太太慢熱了  :(

最近在學校比較常聽見 佩娟 instead of Selina
其實蠻開心的哈哈哈
我不是不喜歡Selina這個名字 也不是不喜歡別人叫
不喜歡的話幹嘛取勒 哈哈哈
只是我感覺  叫我佩娟的話 感覺比較親
因為Selina就是FB名字  叫我Selina我會感覺我們距離很遠 就只是純粹FB認識的人這樣
所以我比較喜歡叫我華語名哈哈哈


有人說英文老師很喜歡我
我其實很怕聽到這種話  會有負擔
萬一我有做錯還是說錯什麼事 老師沒有糾正我  就會被講什麼什麼的感覺
我怕這種事情
但是當然希望不要發生啦
好好上課就好   雖然有時候老師的發音聽了不是很舒服  :/
而且其實被老師記得我會很怕  當初不應該白癡舉手說要念英文系的  白癡白癡!!



今天早上課超級早放學  距離下一堂課還有3個小時半-.-
跑去皇后吃麵粉粿  但還是馬星那間的好吃
然後去sutera繞了一圈  發現沒東西逛我們就默默回學校了哈哈哈哈哈
原來太早放學也不是件好事
上網聊天到上課為止


明天終於又要去新加坡了!! 媽媽載所以不用擠巴士不用沖了!!
開心啊啊啊!!!!  ((撒花


Thursday, February 13, 2014

12-2-2014

從小  我就是個小大人
做了一些自以為是大人做的事情
一直迫不及待的想要長大

可是我怕了
現在真的長大了  我反而怕了
要面對的事情太多  要去理解的事情太多
要掩蓋的情緒  要選擇性的說話
這一切的一切 都不是我以為的大人要做的事情

我以為長大了  你就可以擁有主導權
你可以控制自己的人生  我以為生活會很快樂
可是其實不然  要面對的事情太恐怖了
我害怕了  我不要長大了

如果可以回去  我會告訴小時候的自己
不要急著長大  不要做出一些比年紀成熟的事情
好好過童年親  別長大了




我看開了  我不期待了
時間可以沖淡一切的對吧?
我不要抱任何希望了
我早該放棄了
根本沒有希望的事  爲什麽一直掛在心上?
開始慢慢放下來了  開始不去想了



愛情公寓第四季最大的亮點在這邊
可是爲什麽要跟著一菲一起哭?

認識了7年了  一直井水不犯河水
來了個諾瀾  才了解自己的心
"沒錯 我就是喜歡曾小賢 你咬我啊!"
這句話怎麼會讓人那麼心痛?

堂堂一個女博士  聖鬥士
終於肯把自己的心揭露  終於說出心裡話
卻卡了個諾瀾?



前面一定還有更好的
何必急著抓著這個根本不在你懷裡的人?



沒錯  曾老師和諾瀾在一起了
可又怎麼樣? 這樣才把女博士的戰鬥心刺激出來了

但不得不說  這條微博真心有意思





爲什麽喜歡愛情公寓?  最後一集Lisa榕把答案說出來了
3601和3602  看似兩個不同單位
但他們7人卻在這兩個單位里生活的那麼好
原本關谷悠悠住不同單位
好在一起后就住進了同一個單位
這是何等的幸福啊

愛情公寓的生活  就是我好嚮往的生活啊啊啊







情人節要到了  關我毛事? 哈哈哈哈哈
感覺去哪裡都一堆情侶
沒上課耶赫然想起  要出去走走吧



我真心真心想去海邊 




仔細留意花瓣飄來的方向吧
沒錯  那個地方就叫做——愛情公寓

這麼一個小房子  裝載了那麼多人
帶給了無數人歡笑 眼淚 心疼
唯一喜歡的中國電視劇  愛情公寓





曾幾何時  我也很在乎名利
看開了 看淡了


晚安了

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Birthday.

Hey, it's my birthday again.
I had a gathering at my house last night. I swear, I never wanted to make this into birthday party or whatever, I just hope everyone can gather during Chinese New Year. But when they arrived, they brought a cake along omg.

Esther bought me a nail polish set. Thank you!! I bet you must be suffering when you're choosing because you never know anything about these. lol

Had some barbeque meat, gambled, and the must-have activity when they are in my room---nail polish remove and apply, vice versa.




 I don't know who the hell came out with this idea, having our own pictures on phone and take picture with it.
Note 2, S4, note 2, iPhone. My face is already huge enough, yet I'm holding the smallest out of everyone?! Damn I should've borrowed Kai Yun's hahaha.

The girls from last night.
We're good enough to hold the absents' photos hahahaha. Ah Gou went back earlier for the 拜天公. Tang Tang had to work. Khang Zheng was behind the camera, so Esther held their couple photo hahaha.


Stayed until like 1am. I was so freaking tired after sending everyone home, but still played with phone for a while before I went to sleep. lol


Waking up at 9-ish today, I don't get enough sleep recently!!!!!
Lied on the bed, playing with phone, tossing around, then finally get up and shower at 10:30.

Took this while waiting for my bro today. Birthday, so what? Still have to pick up brother from work, ugh.
Then he told me he don't want to have lunch. O.O  That should be my first meal of the day. I was thinking bringing him to have bimbibap, but he said he didn't want to eat. I was also super stupid, I should've just brought him to watch me eating right? I just went back home straightly. -.-  Then cooked some food from yesterday. Meat meat meat.


Stayed at home all day. Was actually planning to go CS because I wanted to go Popular, but it started to rain all of sudden. O.O   It's like the first rain in, a month? Then my plan cracked, instead I watch some variety show on YouTube.


Had dinner at 9:50 -.-  I've been waiting for my parents because they went for golf! They only came back at 9. Waited for them to shower then go Sutera.
Had Japanese cuisine, as always hahaha. Japanese cuisine is always my favourite! Of course western and Korean cuisine as well.
We went to Warakuya Japanese Restaurant. 和楽屋. Recommended by my mom's friend.

Sashimi platter for 2. But it's actually quite huge portion. The fishes were fresh! Tasted nice! They were super thickly cut as well.

I had a kimchi ramen. I know I'm crazy for going to Japanese restaurant and eat kimchi, but I watched the Korean variety show, and they had ramen, look so freaking tasty, made me craving for spicy too. But here's kimchi ramen is not spicy enough.



After dinner, here I am now. In front of the laptop, again.





Thank you to those who gave me wishes! Thank you so much. Thank you Regyne because you always send me message super early. And yes, I know all those fireworks was for me last night hahahahaha.


谢谢.  我19岁了.
我知道什么可以期待, 什么不用期待.


This is my little blackboard in my room. Thank you Esther for writing the words, and Khang Zheng for drawing it! I'm actually not sure the drawer because they drew a lot-.-  But in my memory, this final version is drawn by Khang Zheng. lol






Wednesday, February 5, 2014

5-2-2014

我喜歡   一個人的時間
但偶爾  又有點不喜歡

喜歡 因為可以思考  可以想想事情
但我很會胡思亂想
我會把這幾天發生的事情拿出來溫習一下
我會突然把聊天內容無限放大
重點在某一些字  然後一直只記得內容裡面特定的詞眼
這不好  好像自己找麻煩來這樣

做了最近FB很夯的測試
有一個是性格的吧
樂天派  0分
哈哈哈哈哈  發給eunice看  他說很驚訝
我看到的時候沒啥反應耶  哇哈哈
因為性格太兩極 自己也混亂


最近一直想起考SPM的那段時間
某一天聊天  有人說了不該讓我聽到的話吧
因為他才剛剛說了  旁邊的人馬上碰他手肘 讓他不要再說下去
可是話已經出來了
啊~ 那天我是被排擠了

當時其實聽到了的  可能因為要考試了  沒有想太多
過了1年多 現在才一直回想起來  幹

偶爾會覺得自己觀察能力不錯
但這種能力也會讓自己難受


我是個很被動的人  在任何一個方面
我是一個沒有朋友的人  因為我很被動
我不敢邀人家出門  因為我怕尷尬
我不是很會找話題的人  所以我怕我們沒有話講  那這個出門是出來幹什麼?

太主動固然不是件好事
但被動也絕對不是什麽好的事情


還記得好幾年前 第一次的網友聚會
聖誕節  東城衛論壇聖誕聚會
因為要從cs去pelangi  和從皇后來的蕊婷姐姐一起在cs meet
那時候他有說  爲什麽你那麼靜? 在網上又那麼好聊
我只是笑笑

在網上可以胡扯瞎扯啊  見面了又不能


我很怕生  我可以去到一個場合完全不說話  如果周邊的人我都不認識
我會怕  我會不敢亂看
我會玩手指看指甲 不然就放空發呆


也因為被動
在南院2個sem過去了  還沒有什麽朋友
大家都成群結隊的去玩啊什麽的
我跟誰都沒有很熟  有人可以叫出佩娟我就很感謝了
大家只知道我叫selina


我會羡慕
羡慕爲什麽有些人朋友那麼多
爲什麽他這樣? 爲什麽他那樣?
可是我會想說  爲什麽要和別人一樣?!

這樣想過後  還是會繼續羡慕啦哈哈哈
羡慕有些人會讀書  有些人有臉蛋  有些人有身材  有些人有好多朋友
自己卻什麽都沒有


生存的意義  是什麽?


是感情變了? 是長大了?
開始會一直揣摩人家說話的語氣
怕得罪別人  說話要轉很多圈
只怕傷到別人  讓別人不開心


太容易emo不是件好事




我愛你們



Saturday, February 1, 2014

大年初二

現在時間  4:45PM  差一點點就是不吉利的數字了哈哈哈
大年初二  下午4點多 在房間敲鍵盤 聽著radio 弟弟和kaki們在樓下賭
我好無聊

新年又怎樣? 就只是個假期罷了  沒有回kampung好無聊
12點多的時候跟爸爸去看了電影  然後我就躺在客廳玩電話
上到樓上來還是在玩電話  真的好無聊啊啊啊
昨天烤了蛋撻  今天想做cheese cake的本來
但是又怕媽媽罵 不敢動哈哈哈哈哈哈
晚上也不知道會不會去媽媽朋友家
如果我沒有去 我就一個人在家了啊啊啊
真的好無聊啊啊

新年前一直講要開賭  但真的新年到了
卻沒有人可以找啊啊啊
沒有朋友的人是這樣的  :(

拜年團也不知道去不去得成
哇啊啊啊啊好想哭  :((((((

大過年的emo神馬啊啊啊
但真的好悲傷的人生