Thursday, June 26, 2014

Surprising holiday.

*sneezing!* Ahem, I'm feeling unwell. The weather recently is either overheat, or rain. Drink more water!!
I resist to have medicine lol. I want my body to heal myself hahaha, I'll see how it goes in few days, then decide whether to have medicine or not.

It's a surprising holiday for Johorians today. Last night, I was doing homework for today's English class, last minute homework, as always. Then I felt tired of reading long passages, I browsed Facebook on phone then seeing someone posting holiday tomorrow. I was like, what?
Then I proceeded to the most reliable source, Google, typing "johor holiday 26 june". Sounds funny? It did the job. =)
Then I saw The Star's news, I read it and I was like yes!! It's holiday! But then I realized that, we're not sure if we have the holiday or not. I refreshed Facebook for so many times, finally after an hour, the result was, the student union said that they will announced tomorrow before 11am.
Eh wtf? Then how about us having early class? I have class at 9, if you announce holiday at 11, isn't unfair to all of us? lol This was my first thought when I saw the post.

Woke up at 7 this morning, I can't even open my eyes properly. But then the first thing I did was browsing Facebook, finding the answer. Thankfully they announced it early! It's official holiday!
Actually it's obviously a holiday to students, but as private institution and Chinese school and college, we just can't confirm right?
Then I received message from Jue Shan, then I received Line message, then I received a call. Obviously there are good students who go to sleep early and don't browse Facebook early in the morning.
My cousin WALKED to school and realizing school wasn't not opening, and other students waiting for parents to come. Then he WALKED back home directly.
I was feeling a lil guilty because I thought of telling him yesterday night, but I think there will be friends of him online all night long, and saw the news and inform them. But no one did lol.


All I did today was having late breakfast with cousin sister, then stayed at home all day. It's a lazy holiday and I like it!
I was actually planning skipping school tomorrow too! But then I realize there's a quiz tomorrow wtf. -.-
Luckily I remembered it, otherwise I'll lost the marks!!!


It's freaking hard to sleep with stuck nose. You can't breath with nose, so you have to use mouth. But the mouth will dried quickly! I felt like getting up and drink water within 10 minutes last night -.-
It's suffering!




It's like people can't bother to listen me. I often can't finish my stories or sentence. I may be cut off by others, then they started their stories, or they have to leave their seats, etc etc. People also can't remember what I said, but wanting me to remember every word they said. I get asked often, "do you remember xxx that I mentioned to you last time?" They expect a "yes" from you. But I can't expect it from others.
It applies in school too. I told my friend things about class when she was absent, but next week, she'll forget everything and I said I told you last week, she's like, "really? I don't remember."
I freaking have no idea why people treat me like this. All I want is just, listen to me, let me finish my story not cutting off me and start telling your stories. This make me don't wanna speak anymore.
That's why I always say I'm a good listener, because no one wants to listen to me, so I listen others.
I'm not a quiet person, definitely not. It depends people around me. I'm quiet now even with my friends. But I'm noisy with my cousins, I like to talk, I talk a lot when I'm with cousins. They make me comfortable to speak.


Super sleepy, gotta sleep.
Stay strong Selina, STAY STRONG.


Saturday, June 21, 2014

Hey.

I know this is super boring and annoying, but I still wanna say, 我又想念Cory了. lol
Just watched Glee "Quarterback", and I was trying to watch it as calm as I can. I tried, I really tried, but at 12 mins, I burst out crying, again.
That's a line tickled my heart, "now he's gone".Anddddd a ninja cut onion in front of me again.



We had a small gathering last week, primary school friends. There were 6 of us.



I love how we still hang out after so many years. I love I'm always included in the gathering lol. I know I mentioned this a lot, but I really love this gang of people.
So many things to talk, so many things to reminisce. We seems like never got tired to discuss about the times back then. We always talk about people who lost contact with us.
We didn't change much from the past. I treasure this friendship a lot.
In these 6 of us, 1 is working, 2 of us are in Southern, the rest are in form 6. But thankfully we still have the mutual topic to talk!
I hope the gathering will be hold very soon! Looking forward to the hotpot party, and macaroons!

We stopped holding huge gatherings since form 3. It's time to keep that tradition going on ;)
Otherwise in another few years, we may separated to different places to further study.




I talked to my English teacher yesterday, after class. I was curious on her alma mater, and degrees. I saw the passion of her in education. It's definitely a brave choice to quit from what you're doing now, and going for education. I love how she speaks proper English as well, unlike the teacher from last semester.... lol.
I told her I was originally wanna take up diploma in English, but persuaded by the marketing department, ends up in foundation, like most of us lol.
Then she told me that, after finishing diploma in English, the graduates will get chance to further overseas! 2 of her students even further in Australia!!!
I was like, wtf! I should've stick with diploma!! I hate the marketing dep. more now lol.
She said I am mature (well thank you, I'll take that as compliment), and our school needs this kind of students. Omo, was she saying that students in SCU are childlish lol. Just kidding!
I guess that's because English department is lacking of students now, as the language courses aren't the best choice people will choose. People always go for business or financial or accounting, the courses that can kinda ensure your future.
Well, I'm glad I have the passion in English.  :)

But I have problems in speaking. I can't speak properly when I'm in front of people who speaks well. I couldn't speak well yesterday as well. I will 結巴. But when I'm alone, I'm completely fine! I guess that's no use speaking well when alone, while 結巴 when talking to people, right?






最近, 左眼一直出現雙眼皮. 我知道那是因為眼睛干和累了.
可是我右眼眼皮很厚, 不可能出現雙眼皮.
所以會形成2只眼睛大小超級明顯.

雖然雙眼皮出現是好事.
但是我希望他是在平時出現, 不是晚上不睡覺的時候哈哈哈.
而且要出現的話,麻煩2邊一起!!
只有一邊的話其實不好看哈哈哈




最近很喜歡把頭髮綁著一個包.
要出去的話, 拆下來后也會有一點弧度, 又不會過度.
上星期父親節的時候, 就這樣出去了.
老弟請吃日本餐😝😝
工作人士就是不一樣, 只不過說好的請客,
從老媽生日, 拖到母親節, 再拖到父親節才實現哈哈哈.
 無視我的大歪臉, 我正在嘗試補救中, 不知道行不行罷了.
嘴唇很沒有血色 :(
That's why 我很喜歡一個maybelline的lip balm.
既有護唇膏的滋潤, 也有顏色. 而且buildable.
可以當口紅用, 可以根據event來看涂多厚.
上次出席婚禮也是直接涂lip balm, 而不是口紅.

好吧, 照片里似乎看不出來. 😂



有一個網上在滑手機的時候, 突然想起pitch perfect,
然後post在instagram了.
我很喜歡Fat Amy這個角色.
很酷, 很直, 很有個性.
超有魅力的角色.

深感應該要改名了, Fat Selina好了.
So twig bitches like YOU don't do it behind my back.
 No particular person in mind.
But I bet A LOT of YOU did say I'm fat.
It's not like I care.


Can't think of any tittle to this post.
Hey will do.
1:06am.
I need sleep.
Good night.



Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Miss

As the tittle, miss defines many. But I'm saying, missing someone..

I miss Cory Monteith, aka Finn Hudson on Glee.

I missed him so badly few days ago. Many scenes of him on Glee flows up in my memory, and it hit me so badly.
The national of the season, they sang songs of Finn's favourite. Of course, we wouldn't know it if his mother didn't say it. But you'll know, that kind of genre.
Then some scenes of him pop up. Anddddddddd a ninja cut onions in front of me.
I couldn't stop myself lol.


好想念. 只因為一首歌  想起了Cory. 螢幕上又播著他的畫面, 讓人心痛.
332天了耶. 快一年了. 好快好快.
忘記不了那一天  知道消息后瘋狂的谷歌  我怕那是誤傳  我怕那是惡作劇
可是CNN的報導讓我崩塌.

為了慶祝100集的時候  連續2集都有翻唱以前他們唱的歌. 有些是一樣的人 一樣的調  有些是改版的  但是我們的Gleek都知道  裡面永遠少了一把聲音...
這2集的歌  現在重聽  幾乎每一首都會讓我想哭.


曾經因為慧敏的推薦  看了Glee  本來保持著一種看看的心態
可是被poker face這首歌完全吸引過去了
看了好久  瘋狂的喜歡  酷我音樂盒里都是Glee的歌
可是後來慢慢的不看了  找不到可以看得link了  我就不看了
斷斷續續看到了第三季還是第四季一半吧  我就不看了

過後就是Cory去世的消息  我懵了
然後終於找到link看了  馬上追回去
好不容易跟上腳步看到了第五季  第三集也同時讓我哭慘了
看了2遍吧  我控制不住

因為那不只是一個人物的去世  那是一個我們喜歡的人去世



You'll always be missed, Cory.
Love.


Tuesday, June 3, 2014

一個人

Hey.
我的心
你好嗎?

Hey.
我的腦
你好嗎?

你們倆  能不能合作一點
不要一起讓我混亂好嗎?


可不可以不要在我選擇忘記的時候
默默又出現?
腦袋啊  記憶啊
不要欺負我  好嗎?

我想忘記
我不要再有那所謂的漣漪了
對我而言太可笑了
說出去耶太丟人了

我不想心里出現漣漪后
腦袋還得撫平它

nonono
我不要這樣的腦袋和心臟


加油
我們一起合力忘了好嗎?
讓它變成一個回憶就好
別再想起來了

反正都這樣過了19年
何必在乎那麼多?
都那麼浩浩蕩蕩的過了19年
何必急呢?


都快2年了  欺負我快2年了
夠了
時間也真的夠長了



快快樂樂的過接下來的每一天吧~
我相信  一個人死不了
一個人  至少不會和別人吵架哈哈哈
一個人  也可以很快樂的



一個人