Sunday, August 24, 2014

你了解自己嗎?

了解自己嗎?

幾個月前和朋友單獨吃飯的時候, 被問了這個問題.
當下我的回答是, "我覺得沒有人會真正的了解自己".
朋友說, 他覺得有.


其實我真心覺得沒有人是真正了解自己的.
有時候太多東西, 是從別人那裡聽來的.

我算是蠻相信星座的人, 我喜歡看星座分析.
當看到分析符合的時候, 我覺得有人懂我哈哈哈.

但是曾經看過一篇報導, 星座不能代表一切.

基本上不同星座的星座分析, 都能夠基本代入所有人.
好像是有一個實驗, 問人們對自己的想法.
寫出來的東西, 多數都是我們看星座分析裡面看到的東西.
根本不是自己對自己的想法.
所以不能太相信星座分析.

舉個例好了.
水瓶座是怕孤單的星座.
我是, 但我相信很多人都是怕孤單的.
然而有些時候, 我也很喜歡自己一個人.

也有分析說 水瓶座很愛看海.
但是我相信  全世界有70%的人都喜歡看海.



了解自己, 我覺得這是個很深奧的問題.
因為人類愛批判, 所以我們會聽到很多聲音.
有時候就會自然而然的把別人對我們的看法, 當做是自己的特徵.
但事實上卻不是的.


前2天玩真心話大冒險的時候,
有一個題目是, 你會在意別人的意見嗎? 你會被別人的意見左右自己的想法嗎? 之類的
我說我會在意意見, 但是我不會被左右.

但是現在我仔細想想, 又好像會.
有時候我是真的很固執, 我想要做這個就會做, 想要買這個就會買.
可是有時候別人說, 真的要這樣? 真的要買?
我就會想說, 這樣啊, 那算了啦.

還是那是我不敢拒絕別人的特徵? lol


這幾天在看 深雪 的小說, "神與人的遊戲".
連接高我, 就是這個遊戲的關鍵.
什麼是高我?  怎麼連接高我?
發揮你自己的本領 能力  幫助自己或者別人
讓靈魂發光  體驗到愛.
那就是連接高我.

裡面的一個角色, 尚媛, 總覺得自己是好女孩.
只做被定義為好的事情.
因為發現2個追求者的為人和想像中不一樣,
而且轉而追求一個突然出現在教會的人,
而抱著要拯救那個女孩的心情,
向教會幹部說了事實.
進而拯救了女孩.

在尚媛看來, 這是好事.
因為他拯救了一個女孩.
但是其實, 尚媛是嫉妒.
他嫉妒2個追求者放棄他.
他嫉妒這個女孩一來就吸引所有人的注意,
所以他揭發了追求者.

但是在他心裡, 他始終覺得這是好事.


很多事情很多時候和我們想像中的不一樣.
像尚媛一樣, 他覺得他這輩子只做了好事.
但是那是因為, 他只做了他自己定義為 [好] 的事情.
他只看到他希望看到的事情.



我們也是在玩著這個遊戲.
能不能夠真正了解自己, 發揮自己,
進而連接高我?


深雪的書每次都會讓我深思
每個角色都有訊息要帶出來
所以我很喜歡深雪的書


每個人活著都在尋找自我
這就是我們的遊戲

但是能不能完成  進去下一個level?
還是一輩子都卡關?


我也想了解自己
但是這  真心不是一件容易的事情



其實寫了那麼多  我都不知道我的重點跑哪裡去了
但是我知道我想說的是


你了解自己嗎? 


Saturday, August 23, 2014

사랑하는 친구들.

我喜歡朋友. 我喜歡一堆朋友在一起的時候.
當然也很喜歡幾個朋友聚在一起的時候.
基於某人在微醺之下有的想法, 我們4個昨天聚在我家喝蘋果汁啦~

其實嚴重覺得不夠喝. 我們只買了一手, 剛好4只. 但大家都處於省省喝的狀態! 才330ml, 一罐氣水也才325ml, 所以其實, 真的很少-,-
改次要買2手才夠了啦哈哈哈


微醺之下, 我們玩盡了我電腦的photobooth.



我們絕對沒有醉哈哈哈. 畢竟...蘋果汁.
當然它其實是4.5%, 只是你喝下去的味道...蘋果汁. 所以我不是在強調我很會喝酒, 因為某位不會喝酒的人也表示, 甜甜的.
但是應該有微醺了哈哈哈. 昨天有人已經出現微醺狀態了.

也當然, 如果photobooth只能拍普通照片就不叫做photobooth了.
肯定還有特別的effect.


哈哈哈哈哈! 這張超好笑的!!!!!!



我們就這樣聚在我的床上, 喝酒吃零食, 還有嗑瓜子 /.\
說了一堆有的沒有的
玩了真心話大冒險 wtf.
說了一點點真心話  opps.


好喜歡就這樣幾個人聚在一起東南西北的聊.
然後回憶我們的中學.  回憶我們的回憶.
所以我們非常的吵鬧. 我媽媽從樓下發來whatsapp 表示我們太吵了XDD


我是非常難說出自己心裡話的人  所以有這種機會真好哈哈哈
我的心臟又動次動次了呢哈哈哈
小心臟受不起啊啊啊啊


棠棠很可惜要工作沒辦法參加我們
不然我們5EA1 的5個人就來齊咯~~
我們等待下次你可以和我們一起啊棠棠!!

真希望可以還有這種機會
聚在一起短短几個小時 聯絡感情.



和喜歡的人們聚在一起真好.


Thursday, August 21, 2014

21-8-2014

The last drama that I finished was The Heirs. Yes, I didn't watch My Love From The Star. It attracted me when the teaser was played during 2013 year-end award ceremony. But then it became so huge, so popular, I lost the interest in it haha. But I think I may watch it perhaps next year, or 2 years later haha. Like what I did to We Got Married, when it was so popular, I think people are crazy to watch artists' virtual marriage. But then I watched it, and I was so into it.

Anyways, I just finished Monstar, a music drama from 2013. I saw the teaser on Channel U before, but I can't remember the date and time, and I don't watch TV as much, so I missed the show. But this is always in my mind, I wanted to watch this so badly. Finally, I had time to watch it and finished it. It's only 12 episodes, and I love it.

Music drama always attracts me, like High School Musical, Glee and Dream High. This is just another Glee like show. Unlike HSM and DH, they don't pursue a singing dream. But it's like Glee, different kind of students gather together, just because they like singing, they like music. They formed a group, Color Bar.

Like most of the school-based drama, the importance of friendship is always the topic. Also, loveline is something to be expected.
In this drama, Se Yi and Sul Chan are together. I prefer Sun Woo actually, he is so understanding, and never let Se Yi cries. But like Na Na says, what's the point keeping a girl laugh while girls always go for the guy who make them cry.
I like Kang Ha Neul so much! He is also the senior in The Heirs, Hyo Sin sunbae.

I like the songs they covered too. I was surprised how good were they. 

Right now I'm watching Trot Lover/Lovers of Music. Eunji of APink is the lead. I like her a lot because she's very cute, and I super love her vocal. Shin Bora, my favourite gag woman also in the show, but her character isn't that likeable from the 2episodes I've watched. But she's an amazing singer. She is the best gag singer!

But Eunji sounds a little awkward because she's trying to cover her Busan accent. She definitely sounds better in accent! Hahaha. But she incredibly can sing trot! And sounds amazing too. 


I really hope to see more this kind of Korean music drama!

Saturday, August 16, 2014

終極粉

我剛剛看完終極X宿舍
我是在愛奇藝看的  我的mac可以下載他的apps 沒有地區限制
一直有人在問我哪裡看的
我是終極粉 我最愛終極三國 還有一家
目前為止 終極系列我都看完了

我想說的是
太爛了   劇本整個太爛了
前面39集都在鋪梗
大戰怎樣了? 不知道
夏天夏宇怎樣了? 不知道
哪一方會贏? 不知道

突然 蹦出一個蒼穹可以加入大戰了
突然2個月后了
突然贏了
突然
我們的夏天夏宇還有阿香回不來了!
liloli
什麼人都回不來了
硬硬安插spexial 所謂的客串
為什麼東城衛和所謂的終極X克人可以回來
終極鐵克人回不來?
X克人是去幫助鐵克人的
X克人不是應該要替鐵克人犧牲嗎?
為什麼蒼穹回來, 其他人回不來...


但是不得不說 藍心湄的演技真的超級強悍
這一集的演技太精湛了!
當他入魔的時候  當他知道兒子回不來的時候
哇塞  演技不是蓋的耶


終極一班2 終極一班3 終極X宿舍
我感覺都毀掉了終極的招牌

一班2和3  太著重在感情線了
雖然一直看到沛慈出現很開心
可是感情線也TMD太重了吧
宿舍到現在我還沒理清到底著重在哪裡

太失望了 真的太失望了
一心想著邪不勝正
我們一定會打敗狄阿布羅魔尊的
雖然是贏了 我們的人卻犧牲了
打了好幾年的大戰  突然因為終極X克人的加入
2個月搞定
WTF?


接下來還有所謂的終極惡女
其實沒有多大的興趣看
可是偏偏又是終極系列
偏偏沛慈也有客串
但是終極又要被拍爛嗎.........



Saturday, August 2, 2014

Late night talk.

Inspirations always flow at the night, especially midnight. It's currently 2:10am.
It's raining outside, pouring super hard, and I have Ugly by 2NE1 as background music as I type this haha. 2NE1 actually put the raining effects for Ugly in their AON concert.


After a long time, I finally log into my page again. My popin' cookin' page.
As expected, there are many messages, and I didn't even read them. Because I'm not selling anymore.
I mentioned it to my 14-year-old cousin, someone offer to buy my page. And I rejected.
She said I'm silly, what's the use of me keeping the page?
But, it's my work.

I spent time and heart on the page. It's not like, oh let's see how many messages do we have, oh let's reply the messages, receive money, send product out, done. No, hell no.
It's a Japanese product, it's from Japan. I did many research on wholesellers to get a reasonable price. the shipping fee were freaking expensive. I couldn't cover anymore therefore I have to raise my price.
For the god sake, I have to even do research on whether if it's halal because we're living in Malaysia. Again, this is Japanese product, they don't have certificate to prove this is halal, but also they can't prove it's not halal. Contacted the wholeseller and Kracie yet no answer. I couldn't afford to send them for test, well because I was still a student and I don't know how to go over the process.
Andddd it created a big mess on me. Cyber bullied came in, yoohoo. Then some friends supported me by speaking out to the bullier, thank you so much for those who stood up.

Back to the topic, I don't know how much does the buyer willing to buy my page. Because once I saw the message, I rejected right away. It's my baby you know. 1k of likes isn't easy to reach as popin' cookin' was just a heat. There was the time "RRcherrypie" on YouTube was so famous, everyone saw their videos. Popin' cookin' was so popular and so many people were searching for it. I set up my page at the very right time because that was the peak. But as time goes on, the heat cooled down, and no one looking for it anymore. Most of the messages I received after the heat were from children who wanted to buy it, mostly Malay, and I know it won't work because well, they were too young to shopping online. Most of them were 8-12. Like seriously?

But anyways, I didn't, and will not sell my page because it's my baby. Well I think no one is interested in this anymore lah.













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Please, say something so I can give up on you. 
Please.