Tuesday, December 29, 2015

29-12-2015

我又做夢了哈哈哈哈
好啦其實人應該每天都在做夢 只是看記不記得而已
夢真的很奇妙 科學家也沒辦法解釋人為什麼會做夢
我們說 日有所思夜有所夢 其實我不是很相信啦哈哈哈哈哈
只是當誰夢到誰的時候 就會搬出這句話~~

好 我做了2個夢
第一個夢 我回到小學了~ ❤️
在班上不知道在幹嗎 2個人一組在做東西
我也不知道我的同桌是誰 貌似不是我小學同學們
因為我們很沉默的在做東西
然後突然有人進來說 呂俊輝 爸爸來了 你們快點出去
然後他和他哥哥 也就是我同學 呂民輝出去了 XDDD
我的天啊 這是個什麼複雜的班級
為毛他弟弟會出現

然後放學很像中學一樣  老師pattern
讓一排一排的走
我很清楚我在輔萊 因為我看見了熟悉的樓梯口哈哈哈哈
我走了傳說中的教師用樓梯
然後看到2樓的班級  誒為什麼他們衣服和我不一樣
我才發現我穿著的是中學的校裙  天啊這真是個複雜的夢
然後走下樓 一路都是小學生
走出熟悉的門口  看到旁邊有熟悉的小店面
以前每次留校補習后都會在那邊坐~ 然後搭巴士回家
本來想進去的 可是沒有開耶哈哈哈哈
然後夢境就默默結束了

我也不記得我是不是回到了6M
我覺得很有可能  因為夢裡我是走到了一個樓梯口
然後有人要走上樓
我才轉彎 走去另一個樓梯口
所以我很有可能是在6M課室❤️❤️❤️

第二個夢...
我在看成績
一如往常  我會用手遮住電腦銀幕 一行一行的看成績
第一行就是我最擔心的semantics fail掉了....
然後往下看  總共好像fail了2科還是3科啊 我的天啊
真心希望這隻是個夢

去年吧  還是前年
我夢見我的economics  被說為什麼會考這麼差
我現在還記得那個夢......
他說 為什麼比別人差 為什麼錯那麼多......
但是結果考了B 我本來很怕不及格

所以這次  拜託拜託 我真的只求及格... T.T

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快過年咯  both 新年 and 農曆新年
默默地在degree1年了... 好快
感覺很快就會結束  有點捨不得哈哈哈哈哈
我已經把 new year resolution這個東西忘光光了啦哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
我的天啊 真是不應該
但是活的開心就好~~~


Saturday, December 26, 2015

聖誕2015=좋은데이 데이

現在有點high high的
因為我幹掉了差不多一整只的燒酒
這次是藍莓口味der~~~
買酒的時候順便買了薯片~~
而且懶惰拿杯子 所以我選擇用瓶蓋
opppsss  下面的垃圾桶還能看到幾天前的桃子酒 XDD

藍莓沒那麼好喝
第一口覺得像咳嗽藥水
但是都買了  必須喝完~
一邊看康熙來了一邊喝掉了
我的天啊 會不會喝太快

我還沒醉  只是開始有感覺了哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
已經過了想睡的階段 默默開始high了哈哈哈哈哈哈
但是完全沒有醉喲  還很清醒的



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期待已久的假期已經來臨了
就是要在家頹廢3個星期ler
韓劇們  姐來了


話說我真的好喜歡這燒酒
好想喝完所有口味~~~~~
買了這只后我就一直想著要喝他
但我覺得會不會太快了  想說隔幾天再喝
但是今天就喝掉了哈哈哈哈哈
好像對這燒酒上癮勒 了哈哈哈科科科
因為是水果口味  有點甜甜的
所以很好喝  所以會一直想喝
完蛋了  被這個酒弄得好像酒鬼

而且桃子口味的一喝完我就惦記著要再去買
星期二剛好又去到bukit indah
我就再次去買了  猶豫了一下決定試試看別的口味
還有grapefruit是很多人喜歡的口味耶貌似
想要再試試看
但是好貴啊啊啊~~~~~~~~~
14塊未加gst  而且才360ml  完全貴鬆鬆的一支
但是好好喝怎麼辦 ❤️

其實我不確定燒酒到底該怎麼喝
應該是和whisky那些一樣小小的喝
但我有點把它當啤酒 有點大口喝哈哈哈哈哈哈
因為不會很嗆  所以喝的有點順口 XDD
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大家聖誕節快樂喲~~~~
結果我的聖誕節就是在家裡喝酒嗎哈哈哈哈哈哈
好啦其實因為宗教的關係  不會真正的慶祝聖誕節
對於這個節日真正的意思還不是很了解  但是我覺得現在的年輕人根本也不懂
反正就覺得是個浪漫的日子 而不是一個宗教的日子~~~
我只是聽了很多Glee的聖誕歌
和以往一樣 ❤️


聖誕快樂~~~❤️


Tuesday, December 22, 2015

hi heelloooo

嗯, 現在12:39am.
剛剛喝掉了半瓶的燒酒  桃子口味的喲 ❤️
好喜歡~~~
因為以前很討厭燒酒  聞起來和指甲油的去光水一毛一樣
感覺在喝pure alcohol  除了酒精的味道就完全沒有味道了
可是這桃子口味的真的很好喝~~~~~

 粉粉的超可愛 還有很多其他口味 但我只記得blueberry科科科

이모~~ 한 병 더줘요~~!!

韓劇裡面常出現的場景  倒了倒 哎呀沒有酒了
然後大聲的喊 姨母~! 喲gi 汗biong 頭捉喲~!
再給我一瓶喲~



其實昨天就買了 然後昨晚就喝掉半瓶了
惦記著今天還有考試  就沒有喝完了
今天考的是韓文~~
完全沒有複習  連平時上課的notes都沒有翻哈哈哈哈哈
唯一的複習  就是早上看了最新一集的running man~~
然後就去考試了
身為英文系的學生  為什麼考韓文比考英文還要有信心??!!!?!?!
而且不得不說真的很容易科科科科科科
10分鐘聽寫  然後15分鐘做完了
然後我就默默地把中文翻譯去韓文  把韓文翻譯去中文
消耗時間  1小時候馬上交卷 科科科


出去走了一天
一回來就喝掉燒酒了
真的好~~~好~~~喝~~~~~~~~~
還想再買哈哈哈哈
因為甜甜的  很上癮 <3 p="">

昨天去買的時候  韓國老闆娘剛好在店裡
懷抱著緊張的心 小小說了2句韓文
可是老闆娘都用英文回覆我哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
저의 한국어는 아직 너무 서툴어 지만, 듣기 잘 듣어요~
저 한테 한국어 써주세요!


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曾經你說過  看見我現在你很替我開心  因為我終於不再是一個人了
現在看見你這樣  也真的很替你開心
而且你真的過得好開心哦~~~~~
雖然在那麼遙遠的地方讀書  但是感覺你好開心
有點羡慕.....


對啊我是過得很開心  和二姐很好  我們一直都黏在一起哈哈哈哈哈哈
可是某個瞬間  會很想念大家
阿一古  思念病又來了


我很容易羡慕嫉妒恨
我很不滿意自己  生活也好個性也好 什麼都好
就是整體上  很不滿意  很自卑
所以我很容易羡慕別人的生活
有一種生活 叫別人的生活哈哈哈哈哈哈

像阿萍學了法文
我好羡慕
西方的語言我一直一直很想學
可是我們學校就是沒有這些語言
西班牙文真的很想很想學
可是不想花錢去學



我知道人比人氣死人的道理
可是就是會心生羡慕

我羡慕你們總是一大群的一起
為什麼總是沒辦法一大群很好的在一起?
我發四  這一年來我沒有做了什麼事情
可是總會有事情發生
然後一個學期就把一群朋友拆散
然後我只剩下二姐一個
但是還好二姐和我頻率一樣   我們相處得很好~~


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好像喝了太多酒了opps

如果你點開我的部落格發現奇異的聲音
99%是我的播放列表的youtube進入了廣告哈哈哈哈哈
請別緊張
我發現很久了  但是我很懶的換



科科科 冬至快樂



Tuesday, December 15, 2015












High school is the best year of my life.








Thursday, December 3, 2015

Althea haul~~~

Since I stopped buying things from ModBox, it's been soooo long for a beauty-related post.
Well I always wanted to be a beauty blogger, but there's 3 reasons that I can't be one.
1. I'm not pretty.
2. I have no money.
3. I'm ugly and poor.

Because of these 3 reasons, I seriously can't be a beauty blogger lol.
I don't have all the money to buy so many things.
The only beauty-related thing that I bought a lot is nails product lol.
Anyways, I shopped at this website called Althea.
It's a website based in Korea, and everything are sent from Korea directly!
New sign-ups get RM15 off discount, and you'll get free shipping for orders above RM150.
But since it's holiday seasons now, free shipping is now for orders above RM100!
And there's a coupon called XMAS-MY, which is RM20 off for orders above RM150!
I used this coupon and new sign-ups discount, I got RM35 off in total!
I think it's a great bargain!!!! Just type in the coupon at the checkout.

Sooooo, I placed my order at the night of 26-11-15, and I received the package today!
It takes only 7 days! Woohoo it's very fast~!

So excited to finally get this! I love how the whole thing is in pink, it's super girly.
And the reindeers and santa in snow, it's Christmas season!
The box is redesigned to match the seasons now. I love the design!
This is actually your receipt. I like how they put heart in doing this,
because most of the websites just fold the paper in half and throw it in.
Merry Christmas!!!
I bought 5 items and got 2 freebies oh yeah! One mask from Etude House, and an essence I believe, from Innisfree. The mask is great, I just bought it recently and thinking of repurchase this particular mask. It's so awesome for getting this!

First thing first, this is called 馬油, which is "horse oil", because it contains the ingredient horse oil. It's a cream.  [RM46]
It looked thick, but it's actually quite lightweight and easy to spread over the face.
It actually smells like grapefruit... I don't know why hahahha! It's "sealed" with a film as shown. But the film actually just sit on the tub, you don't have to peel it off, just take it off haha.

 Because there's so many fake ones out there, the one I bought is from Claire's Korea I believe. I think there's 2 huge company producing this, I once read articles about this hahaha.
So there's the code where you can scan to see if this is genuine through their app.
I downloaded the app and scanned, surprised to see Girin appeared hahaha. Anyways it's a genuine product. :D



Next thing is my favourite sleeping mask from Laneige. It repackaged recently and raised the price. T.T It was RM100 for 80ml tub, it's now RM110 for this 70ml tub. Why oh why T.T 
But on Althea, it's only RM77!!!! But few days later I saw this at RM69 on Hermo.......
Oh the spatula also redesigned, and the previous one is a white-coloured, and this is in clear. 


 Next is rice mask from Skinfood! This is a scrub instead of a mask actually.  [RM26]
There are a lot of small particles, so when you massage on your face, you're actually scrubbing your face. It should be massaged for 10-15 minutes on dry face. Then wash it off.


So that's all for the skincare part. Now let's move on to makeup~~~~
First is this fresh fruit lip&cheek trio from Skinfood. I bought this in number 1, orange. I'm very into orange and coral/peach colour recently. I'm off the age of pursuing pink...  [RM22]

Swatched on my hands. Erm I think it's not very blendable. I tried apply this on my lips using fingers, and the colour can't be blended well. But I think it can be a great blush, with using a sponge or beauty blender may be great.

Here's the funny thing about this. I knew this is small, I read the reviews on the website. But when I see it, it's so damn small!! Everything else is packaged individually in bubble wraps, but this is in with the horse oil hahaha. Lemme show you how small it is.
 The mask is your regular sized mask. And it's so smallllll.
It's so small on my palm XDDD

Also I didn't know how to open this product fml. I though it's like normal products, open the lid. So I was trying to open this while fearing breaking my nails. After 2 minutes, I searched online and found out you just need to push the product out hahaaha. fml fml fml.

Uh uhmmm, let's move on to the last product!!
Saemmul real tint from The SAEM.  [RM10]
I bought this in colour 1, red. The reason why I bought this, is actually because this is the cheapest lip product on the website. XDD
It's actually not true red, but more like a rose red. And I think it stains very well. I used cotton pad and Biore makeup remover, the oil one, and can't remove it all. I then used a scrub to scrub it, it finally removed most of the product but it left a faint stain on my hand hahahaha! But this is what a lip tint should do! Stain well on lips. 
My favourite Etude House lip tint don't stain well, they go off very easily. But I love their colour, so I repurchased it when I lost it in school... lol


Annnnd that's it for the haul! I spent RM146 in total after RM35 off!
But I think it's a great deal as some of them are very affordable and already cheaper than in Malaysia!
And this website do carry some product that we can't get in Malaysia. For example we don't have the brand The Saem here.


I guess that's all for this haul post. I have no idea when will be my next beauty-related post.... 
But until next time, biong!


Saturday, November 28, 2015

#stopcyberbullying

There's a confessions page appeared in our school. When it was opened, I was like, FINALLY!!! We see UTAR confessions allllll the time, and now finally we have our own Southern Confessions.

But after few months of the opening, the page wasn't active lol. I guess we still haven't get used to this kind of page huh? The confessions posted were something that you'll just read and forget... nothing big enough to put it in mind.

Until few days ago. I think it's Tuesday this week, a post appeared. And that post changed the game totally.
It was an attack-tive post. Of course the name wasn't written, but our school is so damn small, like 2k+ or 3k students only. It's actually quite easy to narrow down the range and find the person. Because the poster will describe the person, like what society or activity he/she took part in, and that's a huge clue.
The particular post was towards an emcee, who emceed in English. Alright the range is so damn freaking small. In our school, there's only 3 people who emcee in English, and 3 of them are from our department, of course.
The next post narrowed down again, or actually already pointed the person. Because mentioned that's a girl, who carried branded bags and doing volunteering work.....
There's only one person who match the description.

The next day, I asked my president, "did you see the confessions page?" She did, and she said we should just keep quiet and do nothing.
Uhm... the reason that I asked the question wasn't that I want to say something. By any perspective, I have no stand to speak. And even though EVERYONE knows who the person is, the name wasn't mentioned afterall. If we come out and say something, that's a damn stupid move. I just asked her simply for gossip reason lololol.

Then in class, she showed the posts to our lecturer, I think he knew who it is right away tooooo. It's just..... too obvious.


Later that day, a girl who drove Kancil banged a Myvi when she was reversing. She posted that on our school facebook page, asking the owner to see and talk. She apologized too in the post. The comment section is filled with compliments. "so brave to admit your mistake" "this is the kind of students that we need in southern" "you should be the role model"
Because there are toooo many incidents or people scratching others' cars deliberately in these 2 weeks. You can see posts everyday, yet no one admit and apologize, again of course.
So when this case happened, people are complimenting her, treating her like a hero. I thought that too. Because there's too many cases happened recently.

Then the next day, or later that day, I don't really remember. The confessions page stirred the things up again. Someone posted that the girl apologized because the incident happened in front of our big hall. And that's the right middle of the road, and everyone will see it if incident happened, because beside it is our main building, and there's a TCM building nearby, and hostelers may pass by when they come out from the hostel.
They said she apologized because there were too many people witnessed the incident, and she for sure can't run away from it. So she apologized.
There's not only one post regarding to this, but a few. Then there's posts that defend the girl. Then there's post saying cyber bullying. "What if the girl commit suicides after seeing the posts?" "if she do so, she's too immature for dying over this kind of things" "stop being keyboard warrior, come out and say with your real name" "this page should be closed" "if someone commit suicide over this page, will the owner bear the responsibility?" "this is the worst confessions out of all schools" "you can tell a school's students' quality based on their confessions page" "southern students have no quality"
.............

Because I saw the word cyber bullying, I stopped reading and started to recall the case that happened in me. Few years back then....
I read my post, I read the comments. I think I wrote 2 or 3 post regarding to that. And there's some comments popping out, someone who I still don't know until today. Hey if you anonymously helped me, please let me know who you are lol. The one who comment in Chinese. And to the person who "cyber bullied" me, please don't come back lolololol.

Anyways, I couldn't finish reading all the comments that left by the person. Because I felt so hurt in my chest. To be honest I wouldn't consider this as cyber bullying. Because the person was expressing his opinions, so am I. But both of us were expressing in an very aggressive and sarcastic way. It's like 2 people who hated each other for 20 years, and forced to speak. So I'll try to find the flaws in your speaking, so that I can attack you. And I was very into words war, I like to fight.


Back to this car incident case. Is it cyber bullying? I would say yes, definitely, absolutely. She apologized for what she did wrong, she admitted her wrong. Case closed.
But people starting to come out and try to change the truth. Because of one post, there were more posts agreed to the first one. And the situation changed 180 degree.
At first, people were complimenting her, saying she is brave. Few hours later, they say because she couldn't run away from it.
That means that if the incident happened in somewhere not obvious, the girl will run away and pretends nothing happened. This kind of statement is insulting the girl. You don't even know her, how can you judge her base on this single incident?

This is definitely cyber bullying. So as the first case that I mentioned, my senior's case.
I don't know why people suddenly to be so aggressive and so into picking flaws of others. Let's not talk about the serious outcome, like commit suicide.
If the victims fell into depression? Will you be responsible for it? You will not, you will run away because all the posts are anonymously posted.
I didn't get depression, but my mood definitely got affected. I was very emotional for few days.
It's finals week very very soon, why would you want to affect the girl? She didn't nothing wrong afterall.
What will others think about the victim that get attacked on the confessions page? Southern is really very small, what if when she just walking, and people started to point fingers at her? And that will lead to depression, if she didn't have a strong heart. 


Stop cyber bullying. Stop hiding yourself behind the computer, and posting anonymously. I saw the music video of Show Lo, 夠了. Now you're one of the keyboard warrior, but you'll be the next very soon. 將心比心, 如果不想變成被攻擊的人, 不要先攻擊別人. 你永遠不知道什麼時候輪到你被攻擊. 

Friday, November 13, 2015

愛你喲二姐

正所謂人生是在trial and error中學習  成長

在一群朋友裡面trial了很多次 error了很多次
終於找到了正確的方法
我卻用在另一群朋友身上了

突然想起以前的相處方式
我覺得我變了
可能是因為和二姐多了  我變了

以前我什麼都攬起來  不說
但是因為二姐是有話直說  很會說話的人
混久了被他影響  當然我們這一群人發生的事情也有關係
我們會質問  我們會當面問  當面說

以前的我不會  所以我選擇文字
用文字  自以為不會怎麼樣
結果打出去的文字  和說出去的話語一樣
都會傷人
但是以前不知道這個概念  不知道會有怎麼樣的後果
而且事情發生了  我選擇沉默  我不敢提起來

但是現在不一樣  比較敢說 比較敢提起
真的要感謝二姐
只要我不爽他  他sense得到  其實也是因為我做的很明顯啦哈哈哈哈哈
可是隔天我就不會怎麼樣  我只是當下
而且隔天或者隔兩天  她就會自己來和我說  我知道你前幾天不爽我 blah blah blah的
我們就攤開來說  對 因為你怎樣怎樣我就不爽了
好幾次都是因為功課啦哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

但是因為會說出來  所以不會放在心裡記仇
可是以前的我真的不會這樣  我不知道該怎麼做  所以留下疙瘩


現在覺得長大了  我想要說了
我又怕提起來會不會很尷尬
可是我想說了
希望真的有機會可以說出來  我不想一直放在心裡  自己一直猜測擔心了


啊對了 二姐是我同學科科
大家都愛取綽號啦哈哈哈哈哈
習慣性叫二姐了 科科


只希望不要變成是被躲避  被閃躲的那個人
我希望我們還是好好的....



最近想去韓國的心越來越大了我的天啊怎麼辦
我開始認真在考慮要不要去工作賺旅行錢
我開始有了去韓國旅行的這個目標了
我還在猶豫  我到底應該這麼做嗎
可是那個心和想法一直都在.....


Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Hi November.

It's a new month again.
Hello November.
Few weeks later will be the death of mine.
Finals.

The last 2 months of 2015. The year passes so fast.
I started my degree life in January, and now it's been 10 months.
WOAH. I didn't even noticed that.

It's also the time again, SPM hahahahaha.
Every November and March, my old post about SPM result got dig out again and again.
GUYS!! STOP DIGGING IT OUT!!!!
OMG the poor result got dig out again and again T^T
There's seriously no point searching for this kind of post when it's exam time or result time lol.

I like the new feature of Facebook, oh actually it's quite old by now, the memories.
Sometimes I found it annoying, keep sending me notifications of memories, and I don't really wanna review all that stupid and idiot statuses that I've posted in past....
But it also reminds me of all the precious photos that we've taken, and also the statuses about us hahaha.
5EA1 always remain in my heart!!!!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

24-10-2015

失落的我又來了哈哈哈哈哈
又來散播負能量了


人際關係這個東西真的很難搞
可是偏偏我又是沒辦法一個人活下去的人

遇到的問題很多最近
明明不熟  只見過幾次面
莫名的不爽我?
我自認身為花瓶 我從來沒有用什麼職位壓人
因為根本壓不倒哈哈哈哈
見面次數不多  貌似根本沒有什麼說過話
可是為什麼說話需要這麼樣的有火藥味??
這一點我真的理解不了.


好像很久沒有和朋友聯絡了...
上一次見面.... 上個月尾
其實也才1個月
但是感覺真的好久好久了

我不主動找人聊天  因為我怕尷尬
我很常說話不經大腦  然後就得罪別人了
再好的朋友  我都會得罪到

最近好像又有說錯話了...

但其實我很想念你們了.....


Monday, October 19, 2015

19-10-2015

嗯 想要寫寫什麼
卻又什麼都寫不出


今天在上韓文課的時候
完全無視老師 一直在按電話
group裡面 我們開始了辯論哈哈哈哈哈
3個人對我1個人 你們很棒棒
我知道你們想要幫我
但是心病這種東西 不是說幫就能馬上好
那是隱藏了 累積了20年的東西
真的不是馬上就能好
你們說著你們都懂

可是那種經過身邊的人突然大笑
自己突然慌張緊張  心跳加速 呼吸有點困難
只因為擔心別人是不是在笑自己
沒有這種經歷  你們其實沒有資格說你們可以理解
你們也是這樣
因為我們不一樣

其實活得很辛苦
可是這就是該死的人生
沒有人可以一生順遂
就連金嘆的人生也不是順遂的
沒錯繼承者們的金嘆  這幾天在重看哈哈哈哈


解鈴還須繫鈴人
根源是自己  能解決這件事情的人也只有自己
但真的沒辦法  我的鴕鳥心態已經根深蒂固
遇到事情就逃避是我一概的作風
不是說改就能改


沒有人不希望自己變得更好
只是要怎麼做  才能讓自己更好?

其實我知道方法  其實每個人都知道方法
可是願不願意去做?? 有沒有該死的意志力??
我沒有  :)


最近和一個韓國oppa聊天 感覺爽爽der
第一次和一個人完完全全用韓文聊天
我覺得韓文這一塊我真的死而無憾了
當面和韓國人聊過天  完全用韓文寫字聊過天
用韓文講過幾分鐘電話
已經超過我英文可以做得事情了
我還沒有和一個native speaker說過話  聊過天
幹快來一個American!!!!
學語言學到這樣還有什麼好要求的???
和native speaker聊天-----已爽
能完全聽得懂native speaker的話----已爽
雖然語速有點難 畢竟看韓劇的話語速比較慢一點 綜藝節目又很依賴字幕
但是重複后都能聽懂
我真的覺得韓文學的值得了哈哈哈哈哈


很多人都不相信我只看戲學會韓文
幹  我真心running man看太多了好嗎孩紙們
3個月內一直在追running man 打開電腦就是runningman runningman runningman
這樣一直看能學不到? 當然也是因為家裡有字典
我先看字典學會了字音母音如何發音
然後我開始解析member們的名字怎麼寫 每一個部份怎麼念
就這樣學會了念法  然後就可以了哈哈哈哈哈
會基本的  接下來的就容易了啊

還記得鄭仁趙正治上running man那一集
那是我第一次發現我可以很快的讀懂韓文

學會了念法 從此看綜藝節目注意韓文字幕
韓國節目都很多內建字母  可能也是我看字很快 我來得及看中文和韓文一起
就瞬間學會讀了啊
久而久之真的就學會基本了

看戲的時候不要只是花癡的看著男女主角
注意一點他們所說的話就可以了
英文也是如此 你以為我high school musical那麼多年白看了嗎??
雖然眼睛一直在看男女主角..... 可是耳朵也要聽
看到記得對白 表示你成功了
因為我成功了哈哈哈哈哈


還想說什麼都寫不出
結果扯韓文就扯了一堆
只是想說 語言真的沒有那麼難學會
只是你要把語言融入生活
為什麼我們中文那麼流利? 因為一直呆在中文的環境裡面
換一下  聽多一點英文  自然而然就會流利一點
至於韓文  我只能說glee第三季后我就沒有一直追
我基本上已經拋棄英文戲這一塊  一直在看韓國戲  聽韓文歌
當我所聽到的別的語言只剩下韓文  怎麼會學不好?

就連英文 因為連glee也結束了
以前愛的makeup guru們也沒什麼拍片了
我自然而然少掉了停美國英文的機會
取而代之的是bubz的vlogs罷了  而她說的是ireland英文
所以我發現有時候我念一些字會變成ireland口音
因為都在聽這個口音罷了


所以語言真的不難學
融入生活裡面  多聽就會了
我現在對我的韓文也沒有信心
我不是很敢說  可是韓國oppa說我的發音算不錯了
而且他也都聽得懂  所以這樣就足夠了
當然我希望是可以說到和真正韓國人一樣
語言這種東西  真的要學我就想要學到native speaker一樣

下一個語言是spanish  我一直很想很想學
可是不知道要怎麼下手
等我覺得韓文夠了  等到有一個學習spanish的機會或者緣分
我就會和韓文說annyeonghi kaesaeyo
投入spanish的擁抱  只是那一天還沒到
目前會的也只有rascacielo這一首歌
或許幾年後突然有機會學到spanish
我一定會努力學好的



Saturday, October 10, 2015

9-10-2015

It's been a while.
I've written a post like 1 week before?
I deleted it one day after, as I said in the post.
It's just me throwing tantrum.

Because we were treated like invisible human, and being picked on.
Now I'm over it.
It's just that one day, all the emotions came, and it struck me.
I wrote, I deleted.


I've been listening to Chinese songs for the past 30 minutes now.
I started by 黄昏晓, a song from the drama 微笑pasta, my favourite Taiwanese drama.
Then YouTube started to auto play all the old Chinese songs, and I know all of them hahaha.
It's just me now listening to Chinese songs anymore. I don't know much new songs.
I listen to Korean songs, but only some my favourite artists, and English songs from radio station, which basically the same few songs being played over and over again.


I posted a picture on Instagram last week after I wrote the post.
The comments struck me, again hahahahahaha.
But I finally see the real heart, real feeling.
I'm always guilty for that matter, I always am.
I know I'm the one who brought up the matter, I'm the one who broke everything.
I mentioned it almost every year, I apologized for it almost every year.
What I got was "it's okay" "I've already forgot it"

But last week, I finally see the real emotions.
I know it's never okay, it always got remembered.
It's funny because we see quotes saying don't believe a girl's "I'm okay".
When a girl says she's okay, she is actually not okay.
I think it happened to us. :(

Please let me know if it's not okay.
I always know it's my fault, but you said it's okay.
Then suddenly I can see it's not okay.

But I actually felt relieved ya know lol.
Because to me, it's like we made a move closer to each other.
We became better friends.
We were both not the kind of people who always dig out the heart to each other.
This is the time, I think you dug your heart out, and I finally see the wound that I made.
I'm glad that we were able to do so.
I really am.




Now I'm grateful for the friends that I have.



Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Keep holding on.

I have a habit,
talking in the car.
Imagine there's an audience listen to me.
I can imagine anyone there, or just a person.
I talked today.
About my fears, with my accent.

I cried. 
I didn't notice how serious is the problem.
Until I started to tear.
I thought that's just a small matter.
It is, it really is.
But I guess I underestimate the importance of "English" in me.
I dug out the importance.
I had the feeling that I felt before,
whenever I couldn't get an A for the English exam.
The anxiousness, the disappointment, the sadness.

I thought it's easy to choose a stand.
American or British.
1 out of 2, simple huh.
But I can't choose between.
A huge part of me wants to hold on American.
A small part of me wants me to give up.
But both equally important.
 And I need to make a decision.

I don't want to throw my effort away.
It's been years, forcing myself into American accent.
I don't want to give up.
It's my dream, my ultimate dream, my FREAKING DREAM.

But I have to accept the truth that this is Malaysia.
And we go with British.
I write in British, I speak in American.
Why can't these two meet a balance?

I wish I can balance them.
But I can't, and I have to make a decision.
It's bothering me so much.
I need to find an exit.
I need to have a talk, I need to find a solution.

And I realized the importance of "English" in me.
I really did.
English means everything to me.
My only proud.
I hate everything part of me, but the English.
It's something I'm proud of.
I need to hold on.
I need to talk.


Monday, September 21, 2015

Recently.

I'm freaking busy for the past week....
Or just the past weekend. lol

13th September 2015, Sunday.
Hui Woon's wedding.
Me and Eunice were the bridesmaids, out of 9.
 Us 9.
LE AWKWARD ME, LE GIANT ME.
Like seriously, I always know I'm tall.
But I never know I'm THAT tall lololol.

On our way to the dinner.

 The power of the ZR hahahaha.


It was an intense day, andddd freaking tiring.
All of us were so tired during the dinner,
but somehow we drank a lot hahaha.

We ended the morning session at around 12:30++,
and we need to get prepare for the dinner.
There's barely 3 hours of rest in the middle.


The next day, 14th September 2015, Monday.
Our school had a 2-days-long student bazaar.
 We're selling egg crepes, and it's a huge hit!
 Us working damn hard, didn't have time to rest during the lunch hour... 'cause that's the highlight of the day.
 First day working crew.
Second day working crew.
Yes we were wearing the same shirt because that's our society shirt.
Yes I did of course wash the shirt. :D
There's no way wearing a shirt 2 days straight without washing it.

15th September 2015, Tuesday.
After our hard work, we managed to earn some money ;DDDDDDDDD
We had to even go out to refill our raw ingredients!!!
That's such a success!!! We decided to make this a tradition,
we're going to sell this as a tradition of English society. :))

After working, our dear president bought luncheon meat and rice!
I thought they were joking O.O
I guess you should really believe in seniors XDD
 Fried cucumber with egg, seasoned with herbal egg's sauce.
Fried egg crepe.
Pan fried egg-coated luncheon meat.
Fried tomato egg!!!!
It's a protein and cholesterol filled meal. hahahhaha
 And our senior's masterpiece, tuna egg fried rice!

We had a feast XDDDDD
It's so fun to eat together, like a family!


Few days past.
19th September 2015, Saturday.
My mum's side family had a family trip.
We went to Kukup!
My cousin sister in the middle was our organizer~

Girls, please remember I'm your sister. You've called me jiejie for 15 years/10 years.
Please DO NOT TREAT ME LIKE A BED.
STOP LYING ON ME. YOU DON'T HAVE BONE HUHHHHH???
omg lol hahahahahaha


She wanted to do the pose that T.O.P from Bigbang did. -.-

Was having coffee and milo, and nothing to do......


Yes we had nothing else to do.


HOHOHO.




That's basically it.
I didn't take much photo for Hui Woon's wedding because
a. I'm so tired.
b. I wasn't familiar with other bridesmaids...
c. There weren't much thing to take...
d. they had TR/ZR, all I had was phone..........T.T


As for Kukup, THERE WAS LITERALLY NOTHING TO DO.
Karaoke, okay it is but the song list is a few years back.
And there's no Korean songs XDDDDD

The only thing is I find the person-in-charge very friendly.
She is always smiling and willing to help us.
The house was in good condition too, even though I can't remember the name XDD
 Seafood wasn't that fresh lolol.
I see my dad stopped eating fish after one bite, then I know what happened.
He said there's "soil" taste in the fish...
I just kept on eating anyways, because I can't taste any XDDD
I'm a maniac for seafood.  ^^



Student bazaar was awesome.
There's people coming back on the second day ^^
There's a girl saw our shirts, recognized us from DOE,
saying our egg crepes was delicious ^^
I like how people bought 1,
and came back again for another. ^^
It's a chef kinda feeling, I love how people like our food, coming back for our food.
We're going to make this dish our trademark!!!!
Let's earn more next time!!!!!!!!!!! lololol

:D


Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Sabah trip.

NOTICE: THIS WILL BE A PICTURE HEAVY POST.


I was in Sabah for 4 days, 24th-27th August.
We went to several shopping malls, making my feet sore like hell on the first day lol.
Erm you guys may know that I have goldfish memory, my memory sucks level max.
So I'll focus on food, since that's my main point going there too ^^

First day! We arrived around 9:45am.
Our very first meal in Sabah is Japanese food hahaha.

They are sashimi on the rice! Salmon and erm unknown fish haha. RM22++

We went to a Korean dessert shop too.
I was so jealous of them, having many Korean dessert there.
We don't have one here T.T
We went to Nun Pat 눈팥.

And there are a few choices of bingsu! We chose my favourite, green tea! 녹차빙수!
That's matcha ice cream on top, and red bean mochi at the side.
It's awesome! It tasted extremely matcha, if you get what I mean hahaha.
The flavour is strong, I liked it so much!

We had this too, I don't know what is it called but it's a kind of bread.
I know it looks like bacon though hahaha.
We had cinnamon sugar one, so they rolled this bread on a tray of cinnamon.
It's crispy outside, soft inside, a delicious snack.

As for our dinner, we had seafood!
My friend's dad picked us up and bring us there.
 This is butter crab I believe.
 And this is "甘香" crab.
Each plate of them are 2 crabs, making 1 kg.
And do you know how cheap it is????
FREAKING RM30/KG!!!!!!!!!
I was so damn shocked when I heard the price!
Of course I know Sabah's seafood are cheaper than us, but I thought,
okay it's a lil cheaper than us, don't expect to be extremely cheap.
But hell yeah! This is the extremely cheap!!!!!
Me and another friend went crazy when we heard the price lol
Because here in Johor, we definitely can't get this price AT ALL!
There's no way that you can get crab with RM30!
So we ordered 4 crabs right away lol.


 We went to Signal Hill Observatory  for night view too.
But the view isn't that great, all you can see are buildings, and they covered each other.
Basically can't see much things hahaha. 



The next day! My friend's dad brought us to breakfast toooo.
金興利茶室 for 生肉面.  Kim Hing Lee for pork noodles.
For direct translation, this will be "raw meat noodles".
I was scared when I first heard it toooo hahahahaha
Because I know Korean do eat raw beef, so I'm afraid it's something like that!
But NO! It's pork that is cooked just right, making is so soft and tender.
Like raw meat.
Ermmm in my opinion this is just like any noodles that you can get here in Johor.
But what special about it is there's intestines inside, which I love ^^


Later we walked around at the Gaya Street.
There are a lot of special local products, to foreigner.
To us, we can get most of them here hahahahahaha.
But I did buy a dried pineapple because I never seen it before here, and it's good!
I saw a lot of things packaged with orang hutan, or monkeys, or natives's pictures, making them Sabah's special.
But they are just basically things that you can get all around Malaysia hahah!
After walking around, we had lunch at Yee Fung.
Their specialty foods are claypot chicken rice, laksa and offal, intestines of beef 牛雜湯
Since we weren't tooo hungry, and one of us don't eat beef, so we tried the other two.
 Laksa.
Erm I guess the lime making it a lil special from ours hahaha.
But the lime did make wonder, giving a special taste to it.
 Le claypot chicken rice.
Okay this is totally different. I guess I never seen this dish with vegetables on top,
moreover an egg!
We both from Johor were surprised hahahahaha.
We broke the not-fully-cooked egg and mix together.
But I didn't like it, the egg making the rice wetter, and I didn't like it. :(

After lunch, my friend's dad picked us up again, brought us to Tanjung Aru!
He dropped us at Shangrila resort, so we walked around it lol.
Then we walked to the beach, which I looked forward the most!

My view lololol.
We just stopped at a random shade, and sat and talked.

The wind was soooo comfortable! I have a thing about beach ^^

We then walked a lillllll bit moreeeeee to a foodcourt to rest.
THAT'S HUGE!!!
We two shared the avocado drink, it's so damn thick.
This was actually my first time trying avocado drink, I only used avocado as mask before XDD
It's thick, almost like peanut butter, and even tasted like it! I liked it! :)
We had some satay, which is like a must-have here because most of the stalls are selling it.
Then we proceed to the most looking forward tanjung aru beach!
We sat at the bar by the beach, and this is mojito.
We wanted to wait for the sunset, but uncle picked us up because he didn't want to get stuck in the traffic.
So we left earlier, and didn't get the chance to see it.
But before we left, we did walk a bit.
The sand were so damn fine! Like flour!
I'm not joking, it's really that fine!
We saw a jelly fish lololol. And we thought it's alive.

But the beach was filled with this. Lil sand ball made by CRABS.
We saw little crabs pushing the sand from the hole, making it this.
THIS IS SO DAMN SCARY AND DISGUSTING>
Imagine they are 3D rounded sand balls, and you're stepping on it making it flat.
UGH!
I thought I get Trypophobia from it lololol
密集恐懼症! 整個太噁心! 一粒一粒 滿滿整個沙灘都是! 走到哪裡就踩到哪裡!!!!!!



Third dayyyyyyy we had breakfast in hotel. 
And then we started our walking journey and eating time!
Takoyaki! This was special because there were 3 flavours: original, spicy and wasabi.
We tried this wasabi and it's yummy!
And it's cheap too, 3 balls as one unit, RM3.9!

We walked around more, and had simple lunch.
I think this was cheap too! Salmon belly for RM9!
It's soft  *^_^*

Andddd we proceeded to another shopping mall hahahaha
I don't even remember the names because I was tired from walking and I'm just happy that we get aircon lol.
 Since it's Wednesday, I must have baskin robbins!
I always get them if there's baskin robbins around and it's Wednesday ^^
Otherwise it's too expensive to me.
Baskin robbins in Sabah is RM1 expensive than ours, or else its price has increased and I didn't know hahaha
RM8 for a junior scoop in Sabah, and I believe our are RM7.

We walked, walked, walked and walked.
We walked past this Italian stall few time until we really bought something hahaha.
Spinach quiche! Erm I guess it's alright, too creamy to me. 
I got a snack called bread tongue and it's yummy!
Crispy and a lil spicy, it's gooooood.

We had our dinner at Sin Kee bah kut teh 新記肉骨茶.
I never had bah kut teh with meatballs inside though O.O


We continued our walking journey.... oh my poor legs T.T
Walked to a graffiti place.


Later we wanted to go the October Cafe, but it's closed T.T
Sooo we went to the other, which is just right opposite of it lol


I had green tea latte, and I thought there'll be 3D latte art.....
I didn't see the RM2 for the art.....
But I'm happy for Pikachu anyway! Pikka pi, pikachu!
Cheeseeeeeee cakeeeeee.

Serious like hell. And I started to think the chess looks like a peanut snack that we'll eat during Chinese New Year lolololol.

Later our another friend joined us....
And this masterpiece was made. Hahahahaha!

We sat there for amost 3 hours! And customers come and go, but we were still there lol.
Tiny weeny affogato.



The last day T.T
While we were preparing going out hahahahahaha.


At Wiya chicken rice, 味雅雞飯.
Unlike your typical kopitiam, we had to actually order at a counter, pay,
sit and they will deliver the food to us.
I guess that's new, because we had to pay first and order at a counter.
It looked pretty with the triangular cone shaped rice.
Tastewise.... my aunts make much more better hainamese chicken rice.....
because they are hainamese.... hahahaha!


After this, uncle sent us to the October cafe! Thankfully it's open ^^
 OH WHERE ARE MY EYESSSSSSS
I SUCK AT TAKING GROUP SELFIEEEEE DANG IT.

We sat "upstairs", which is actually a half floor in the shop.
I think it's brilliant because since the shop has a high ceiling, why not making it a half floor?
But it's damn low, I guess around 160cm high.

There's a funny story here.
I ordered long black, and actually I didn't know what's that lolololol.
I wanted to have americano, but I want something stronger.
And I think long black seems stronger XDD
When the staff brought it up, he said americano with extra shot.
And we said we didn't order it. Mine is long black.
So he went back down, and came up again.
Yeah this is the long black.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Don't blame me, he didn't know what's a long black tooooo hahahahaha.


 Honey toast. Toasted grain bread, whipped cream, nuts and honey on top.
Blueberry cheese cake and ... chocolate cake hahaha!
Both okay, nothing impressed.


Sat there for a while, and finally we went to tanjung aru again!
This time we had to see the sunset!!!!!
Ughhhh damn glooomy.
Then it rained damn heavy....... T.T
Margarita. I thought this was my drink at first......
Turned up this was mine lol. Tequila sunrise. Tasted like coughing syrup T.T
I was laughing at my friend at first, since we thought wrong.
Due to raining, the staff ran to deliver the drinks and didn't tell us which was which.
To make sure we got the right drink, I googled the drinks.
Bang, we got wrong. So I got this coughing syrup hahahahahaha.


 The rain decreased and the sun started to set! Omg I was impressed with my phone lol.

 China people got serious and brought their tripod along omg hahaha.
 This gang of people all wore blue raincoat... and my friend said they're like penguins.... hahahaha!
Panorama gone wrong hahaha! I did not combine two pictures!
This is a panorama picture.. it doesn't look like one I know hahaha.


C @ Sabah. I'm Chua, and my friend is Chai, so we're Cs!

 Again, I love my phone!
 It's a heart cloud!!!!

OMG This is my favourite picture!!!!
My friend nudged me and told me there's a heart cloud!
And I saw this couple taking photos with their tripod.
I snapped them in, making a couple with heart cloud in a picture.
And I think it's beautiful.....^^

A last one before we leave.

 If we focus on faces, we can't get the beautiful sky.
To get the sky, I had to keep tapping on the sky, and snap. Keep repeating because the camera will focus on faces automatically.


We then had our last meal there. The chinese restaurant looks like super expensive because it's tourists area... especially rich China tourists.
I asked how much is the crab, in Malay, I think the Malay girl was surprised lol.
I spoke with my fastest Malay everrrr hahahahaha!
She said, RM40/KG, and 4 crabs make 1KG.
So we got crabs too.
Hello?? RM40 is also damn cheap one okay?? Why do you sound like it's expensive hahah!
Dry butter crab! The one we had on the first day was wet butter, and this is dried, highly recommended by our friend!
DO NOT BELITTLE SMALL CRABS.
They were small, yes. But they gave us all 4 female crabs!
FULL OF EGGGGGGSSSSSS OMG
SO DELICIOUSSSSS!!!

Had a fullll dinner, then uncle brought us to airport, which was only 3 minutes away hahahahahahahaha!
 Landed in Senai at 11:45pm.


I had a blast in Sabah! We ate so much!
Yes we didn't go anywhere except shopping malls.
People were asking did I go here and there, no.
But I'm happy anywhere. I told my friend before, I don't like going to tourists places because there will be a lot of people!

One thing I notice in Sabah is, I can't differentiate whether they are Malay, aboriginal, or Philipino!
OMG they all speak same! Their Malay is definitely different with us.
And there are soooooooooooo many China tourists!
We went into a shop, a staff asked us, "Malay boleh?"
"Boleh, kita Malaysianlah!"
Then she said sorry for misunderstood hahahahahaha.
Seriously I didn't see much local Chinese, all I see was CHINA TOURISTS.
We saw a group of girls who look like Korean though, but then they spoke,
DANG China people hahahaha.

I definitely want to return to Sabah in future if possible.
I want to see the real sunset, with the sun! hahahahaha
And I want to stay at the beach a lil longer, step on it a lil longer.
So damn fine..... I didn't have a container to bring it back though.... T.T

Thank you so much to our friend, Eunice for bringing us here and there!
And her dad for fetching us tooooo! Next time you come Johor I treat you bitter gourd soup ah ^^

It was a fun 4 days!!!! *^_^*