Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Goodbye.

My Japanese friends had flown back. 
They landed safe and sound.
The plane took around 12 hours.
When she told me she arrived, I told her how we were still having dinner yesterday.
But now you're in Japan.
Malaysia and Japan in 24 hours.

Last Sunday, 21st June, we had our last dinner together.
I went to my friend's house for the weekend, so we were rushing back.
After having father's day dinner with my family, I rushed to school.
Then we went to Paparich for dinner.

I was very quiet, to a point where my friend asked why am I so quiet.
Flashback, I remembered how few years ago Eunice, Esther and Mong asked me the same question all the time.
Amusingly, I answered the same answer.
"I'm tired."
I'm sad. Deep, deep in my heart, I felt it.

We went to Aeon, bought some sweets 'cause I think I'll need it.
I was being crazy that day, doing weird actions, saying weird things.
I was sad.

When we went to pick up car, I went off to pay the parking ticket, alone.
My friends followed me, and one of them said,
"you're not alone."
I wanted to cry.
I told her I think I'm gonna cry, she said just cry.
My tears were spinning in my eyes.
Held it back, drove back to school.

Saw my Japanese friend, Remi knocked my car after we sitting in for a while.
I took a deep breath, opened the door. 
I saw her, and I started to cry.

We all cried. Standing on the road, crying.
I already knew this, I expected this.
I had so many things to tell her, but I couldn't.
But I held my Korean friend's hand, said
"가지마라. 여기서 영웡히 사라"
I didn't even know if it's grammatically correct.
"Don't go. Stay here forever."
She said it's like a boyfriend saying to girlfriend. 
Hahaha. I meant it.
We walked our hosteler friends back, cried damn hard in front of the hostel again lol.

When it's finally time to go, I and my partner looking at them.
I couldn't bear.
At last, I know we really have to go and say goodbye there.
I waved, saying bye in very small volume.
I couldn't bring myself to say it.


I cried damn hard that day, when I was driving back home lol.
I really couldn't bear to leave them.
It's only 3 months, our friendship isn't that strong tbh.
But when it's really goodbye, I seriously couldn't bring myself to say it.

I know after saying goodbye, it's forever.
Unless she comes back lol.

I had so many things to tell her, but I didn't.
Whenever I tried to speak, I choked, my tears flew down like niagra falls.
I wanted to say, Remi, thank you and sorry for these 3 months.
Please do take good care of yourself, and please visit us if you have the chance in future.
Please do not forget that you have a gang of friends here in Malaysia, here in Southern University.
Please do not forget English lol.

I didn't say anything.
I wrote her a letter, with heart.
I apologized. She said I don't have to.
"But I think there's things I need to do, but I didn't do them well".
Even this short sentence, I choked like hell.

It's like graduation again.
A goodbye, means goodbye.

I'm lucky to have a friend in my life for 3 months.
But I hope this friendship will last forever.

I'll always remember I have a Japanese friend,
from Aichi University, very cute and beautiful,
fluent in English and Chinese, and of course Japanese.
She's very talented in languages, she was even learning Korean.
That cute little girl, always misspelled my name as Selena.
Whenever she sees me in school, she'll scream and run to me.
She's one year younger than me, and she always have perfect makeup on. I love her lip colour lol.
That girl, is called Remi Moriyama.

Thank you Remi for appearing in my life for 3 months.
If things go smoothly, your juniors may be coming next year.
Next year, I'll join the program again, and take good care of them.
I'll ask them if they know Remi Moriyama, and I was her language partner.


Nice to meet you Remi, I'm Selina.
Thank you. Sorry.
Goodbye.


Monday, June 15, 2015

Ms懵 21歲生日派對


我們的Ms懵 21歲生日---在下個星期哈哈哈.
但是提早辦了生日派對啦~
我們又聚在一起了~~~~~
只是棠這個時候還沒到, 所以我們又是5缺1.
我愛我們5EA1~ <3 p="">


理所當然就是吃.
我們一到就吃
由於客人很多, 我們幾乎是自家人哈哈哈哈
所以跑進家裡---繼續吃
拿了一堆甜品  水果塔超級無敵好吃
塔皮雖然有一點厚 但是超級好吃 超級脆 整個棒棒噠
全場都是雯的媽媽煮的 (y)
超級厲害der哈哈哈哈

這個mascara貌似有點恐怖哈哈哈哈哈哈

這位親很難得的穿起了裙子~
終於邁入化妝界的親
Welcome to the 化妝的世界~

其實下午我們去了CS一趟 cadbury新出巧克力在做event
有popin candy的那款超級酷的  跳跳糖還蠻多的


棠還沒到  所以依然是5缺1的情況
其實整個晚上我們是一直躲在房間裡面的
就自己開音樂在那邊聽和瘋狂

 因為說要笑開花, 所以我們變花了.
笑得好開心啊 但一切都是演戲哈哈哈哈




我很愛很愛很愛和朋友在一起的時候
即使就只是默默地坐在一起 我也好喜歡
在房間 我和eunice都有點醉了哈哈哈
就一直笑一直玩  我好喜歡
我喜歡可以很放鬆很放鬆的在一起
但我預料中的話題還是被挑起來了哈哈哈哈
姐不再害怕 因為已放下
那就只是犯花癡 一個人在瘋狂的回憶
不會再緊張 不會再神經
只因我真的放下咯
前面一定還有更好的. 嗯.


實在是很喜歡這樣的聚會.
但幾年過去後  我們還能這樣嗎?
現在讀書的讀書  工作的工作
我們能在一起的時間只有週末
但是一整年下來這樣全部人都在一起的機會其實不多
再多幾年呢? 讀書的畢業了, 去工作了.
我們..還能這樣玩下去嗎?
我們的感情  還會這樣嗎?
5EA1, 其實已經畢業2年半咯, 今年第3年了.
2年後, 我們還能不能繼續這樣下去?
姐妹們的感情能否依舊, 男生們的友情還會在嗎?
而且現在大家都有各自的朋友圈, 不再只有彼此.
未來會怎樣?
不知道, 不敢想.

我之所以那麼活在回憶中, 就是因為未來很可怕.
未知, 充滿變數.
計劃永遠趕不上變化.
只能好好珍惜我們在一起的時間.

中學是最美好的時間.
因為我們只有彼此.
每一天見面, 一起讀書吃飯玩耍.
朋友圈彷彿只有班上同學.
畢業了, 讀書工作了.
開始衍生新的朋友圈.
讀書的, 學校參加社團又會衍生新的朋友圈.
慢慢的朋友圈不再是單一一個的了.
而工作的, 工作夥伴就是一個朋友圈了.
多年以後, 這個最原始, 只有彼此的朋友圈還會在嗎?


大半夜的又一堆感觸.
反正我知道 我自己不會忘記5EA1.
只要有聚會, 我肯定會在.
只因為, 我們是互相扶持的5EA1.
永遠最喜歡的一年, 5EA1.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

I guess I found the reason why am I so emotional recently.
It's the pms lol. It's the time of the month :((


康鎮又把這張照片set as timeline cover了.
騙了很多贊哈哈哈. 又多了一些贊.
看了一下, 2013年就用過, 現在再用的.
這張照片是我們的"畢業典禮"拍的吧, 和老師們哭到要死然後又包桌子的那天吧.
是同一天嗎蛤這2件事情? 我忘記了 omg哈哈哈哈哈
這週末因為ms懵 21歲生日派對, 大家就又會聚在一起了, 又是一個班聚的港覺.
其實我們人不多, 隨便一個週末打電話 line fb 約一約就可以出去了.
但是就是沒有人做這件事情.
現在難得有一個機會大家都會聚在一起, 真是開心~
我喜歡大家聚在一起的感覺~~~
雖然都不是那種幾十年沒有見面的人, 但是這種久久全部人聚在一起真的很好.
我要自備啤酒去瘋了哈哈哈哈.

我是個很活在回憶中的人.
以前form 5 的時候我有一個粉紅色的file.
用liquid在裡面寫了很多東西, 有memo也有歌詞.
到現在我都還沒把那些字割掉.
現在好像寫著Taylor Swift的Mean的歌詞, 還有提醒jamuan的日子.
哈哈哈哈哈以前真的很喜歡玩liquid 曾經為了知道裡面到底有什麼
為什麼搖的時候會有聲音, 一直擠liquid, 擠在桌子上, 窗邊, 到處擠.
好不容易真的用完了擠不出來了, 用剪刀剪開,
才知道裡面是一小塊鐵塊, 立體的長橢圓形的鐵塊來的
瞬間感覺神奇哈哈哈哈哈.




最近發現有些人們  在外人面前表現的感情很好 好像真的姐妹一樣好
但私底下好似不是這樣的
問A關於B的東西  可能A都不知道
好像一切都是作秀  都是表面
為什麼?? 我很好奇.

權利很重要嗎??
我不知道為什麼有人這麼想要掌控完權利?
拿了象徵性的東西有什麼用? 到底想幹嘛?
越來越反感了怎麼辦.
有些人啊 對他們不可以軟  否則他們會得寸進尺 越來越過分

我就是被說太軟了 什麼都可以可以
然後就被欺負
現在不行了 要硬起來了  姐其實不是那麼好欺負的
只是把你當朋友  什麼都順著你  不代表我就可以被你欺負
算下來你還小我1歲, 小其他人2歲.
到底憑什麼這樣子對我們?
職位? 呵. 你的職位和我的一樣都是花瓶, 甚至你更花瓶的港覺.

做人要學會做人.
不要以為別人對你好  你就可以得寸進尺
給你方便  你還把我當隨便了?
做朋友當中會駕車+有車的人其實很辛苦
automatic都是我駕車
說實在的很累



嘿好像這個sem過一半了
好恐怖  發現3星期後連續3天都有assignment要交+presentation
祝福我不會死掉  都可以順利完成功課吧哈哈哈哈哈哈

1:07am
該睡覺了
잘자.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Good night.

Hey.
It's the time again.
Feeling like shit, repeating everything everyday, living a repetitive life.
We all have been through this, frankly almost all of us living a repetitive life.
Since the moment we stepped into a school, into the kindergarten, we've started the kind of life.
But recently, I would start to realize how shitty is the life, and really really wanna getaway.
I start to feel like crap lol.


Anyways.
Last weekend I went to Melacca with Esther.
Our motive is to eat, eat and eat.

 *le awkward timer pose*
 *i hate the sun*
 Staying in the air-con room is so much better.


 The food that we ate on first day night and second day.
Personally think this picture is a masterpiece. I like how it focus on the ice cream, while background is just blur. Autofocus by my iPhone 6.


Surprisingly the most delicious food that I've eaten in 2 days, a sushi stall in Jonker street.


Most of the restaurants that are recommended on internet are just meh. Or at least just me lol. I'm kinda picky, especially when you're so famous or buzzing in the internet, you should have something right? But to me, Johor's food are so much better.
The durian cendol is a joke. Sooooo many people queue for it, yet it's just a plain cendol with durian "sauce". Seriously?? We thought there will be real durian in it, but the durian flavour comes from a sauce. After finish it, the durian smell won't linger in your mouth. Soooo I guess that's a plus for people who like keeping their breath fresh but also like eating durian at the same time? Funny.
As for the chicken rice, ermmm. We queued for 20 minutes. I don't like the rice ball because due to squeezing the rice into a ball shape, the rice are not fluffy at all. I can totally understand this, so it's just me myself not liking unfluffy rice. It was okay, not like super delicious. Not a typical Hainan chicken rice though. I don't think Hainan chicken rice serve the chicken with soy sauce, or at least Google images doesn't and my aunties who as Hainanese cooking this doesn't. It's actually plain chicken. I think only 芽菜雞 serves with soy sauce, and I think the one at 嘉洺 did a better job lolll.
Didn't get the chance to eat the satay celup though. I still remember the Ban Lee Siang though. It was quite good.


[Dream like you're going to live forever, live today like you're going to die tomorrow.]
This is what I can interpret from this text. Live today like there's no tomorrow.

I guess I'm getting greedy.
After last week mini getaway, I want more.
I want go to the beach. I miss the beach. :((

Really, really want to go to the beach.