Monday, March 28, 2016

I'm on sem break.

Oh yeah the sweet sembreak has finally come!!!!!

I'm again the language partner of the Aichi University Students Exchange program of our school.
 I did my very first emcee in my whole life. 
It was amazing, I didn't really do much, all I did was read the script.
But the compliments from our dean and a stranger, darn it felt good lol.
Our dean must've said it because well I'm from his department lol.
But after the event ended, a guy came up to me and ask if I'm from the Southern TV crew, the in-school-TV in our school.
I said erm nope, I'm actually just from the English department.
He asked me in Chinese, I replied in Chinese I believed lol.
But then he started to talk to me in English.
He didn't believe that's my first emcee though lololol.

Do you know how good it felt to speak in English, not a Chinese word at all?
Even though I'm a English student, my English conversation with friends don't usually last 10 sentences; either me or the other party give up.
But damn this guy talked to me for like 5 whole minutes, and allll in English.
I never met someone who is so passionate about English in this school before!!
He was wondering what event do we do, what activity can he take part etc.
And the most amazing part is, I usually speak super duper fast, and he can catch up all my words.
omg that's something to me.
I've been told I speak way too fast, especially when I'm nervous.
So it felt really good that someone can actually understand me fully! 

Anyways, I'm thankful for the chance being the emcee of the day.
Even though I made some mistakes, the teachers in charge didn't blame me and even sent me an gratitude email lol.

Friday, March 11, 2016


I'm actually on my midway doing assignment. Ugh, education psychology. Due tomorrow, do it tonight lol.
I have a huge cup of coffee beside me, and I kept reaching for it. When I meant huge, I mean at least 600ml lol. I need caffeine, but at the same time it does nothing on me. I'm still sleepy, I'm still struggling to open my eyes.
Anyways, I'm just here to say something.

I was told I am naive. I can't see the purpose of people's requests, I don't say no. I always gasp when they tell me what other actually meant. Because I didn't think that deep. I say yes, because hey we're friends. I'm always there for my friends.

But now, you are doing the same thing to me. I know I shouldn't say this but hey it's been 1 year. All the things that you said people did it with purpose to me, you're doing it exactly right now to me.

I'm a weird person hahaha. I don't like being the driver. I always curse when I'm the one to drive. But when people want to drive, I always felt uneasy in the car. Like shouldn't I be the driver? omg it felt so bad sitting at the passenger seat.
But I don't want to be the driver. Alright you said that they never give me gas money when they use me as a driver. But.... did you?

You know, I'm not stupid. I'm actually not that naive. Yeah I cannot see everything sometimes, but 어는정도 I know. (sorry I can't think of the English word for it)
I can tell a lot of things from your action.
Can everyone stop using me like a maid? I'm doing everything because we're friends. I treat you as my friend, that's why I did everything.
But do you treat me like a friend? Or just someone who lives at home and have access to a lot of resource?

Oh I want to mention this as well hahaha. I have like a namelist in my mind, like who are allowed to come to my house and who's not lololol.
I know this is childish but I can't help. I cannot accept everybody in my house.
I just discovered this recently. I kept rejecting people coming to my house. But I love having some in my house.
For those I never rejected before, hey I love you so much.

Before you point finger at other, please remember, your remaining four fingers are pointing to yourself. If you want to criticize a person, remember to look at the mirror, and check did you do the same thing.